my story

2010-06-16T18:45:00.004+08:00

probably exepecting too much from you is making me feel this way

i dont want to stop talking to you, but if i dont then i'll start venting all my frustration on you
i'm not good enough for you sometimes
and i end up hurting you all the time

my emotions get over me and you dont deserve what you're getting cos you really deserve better.

Lord guide me, the world always seem so uncertain and full of insecurity

2009-12-22T19:33:00.001+08:00

May we find rest and refuge in You
May we grow in our faith and constanty learn to rely on You
To know You better
And though however hard things may be, help us to put our human nature down
And to listen to the soft calling from you Lord.
Let us be as blameless as possible
Not let anger
or any negative emotions overcome us
May we be filled
with faith, hope and love
the three greatest things of all
Guide us through the storm
We lift it all to you
-Whatever it is-
And surrender everything b4 your name
-everything-

Charlotte. .refine me through the flames says:
amen
Illusionista: Purple Peace says:
Amen

how did things end up this way?

2009-11-12T15:03:00.005+08:00

it's making me worry for you

and i cant concentrate properly everytime my mind starts to wonder off

prob its just me that wants to cling on so tightly

and even if you dont even bother i just want you to know that i'm still here no matter wad

my heart still aches for you

but i'll still cont to pray

stay safe alright

2009-10-25T23:48:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BDAE JOEY!

May our frenship last(:

you got me thinking

2009-10-24T18:28:00.004+08:00

now you just got me thinking tt i have to blog immediately or not the thoughts would have drift to the back of my head.

heyyy, i just want you to noe, that this special bond we all hold in our hearts really means alot to me, and i really dont want you to give it all up just like this, if i even had a chance and if i were you, i would really want to make things work instead. our frenship held so long is defintely not a coincedence and its ald amazing how we could even last this long. so pls pls, dont give it all up like this alright. once you really make your decision, and if it turns out smth i'm hoping it dosent turn out to be, i'm quite sure that there'll be smth lacking in this frenship, and its gonna be like smth's missing and things will no longer be the same, no more as perfect or complete as it used to be.you make up a significant part of this frenship and you're rly smth and a part of us. i must agree with u, that things are changing among us all, but its also prob just a reminder or a wake up call for us to treasure wad we have, and things that we can no longer get once again once we let go of them. its difficult to find it back again, and once we let go, the pain and misery and regret is gonna be difficult for us all. so dude, i really want you to think abt it again. think it thru abt wad you really want.

i dont want you to leave

lets make things work

i noe i havent been blogging properly for so long, cos lately even after exams things are just tiring me down and when i sit in front of the com, nothing comes into my mind to blog. so i'll catch this moment to blog abt the things that happened lately.

ohoh, went to orchard with liyue and amanda on mon. the pics are uploaded in my fb! maybe later if i feel like it or have time then i shall upload here or smth. it was really cool., i must say we had a lot of fun camwhoring hur(; and amanda, thanks for being our part time camera man since you didnt want to be in the shots. hoho.

gosh. guides spf day camp is coming up, next mon to thu, hopefully i dont die over the days. esp with tent pitching and plus, chinese tuition every alt nite can kill me, so tiringggg! ): oh man. but i am also looking forward to some parts of the hols after chinese olevels. perak trip, family trip and youth camp! woots! ok yes i must admit i may be freaking out abit for perak trip but i'm looking forward to it at the same time cos i told myself i'm gonna approach the adventure with an eager and positive spirit. hoho. yes yes charlotte is so looking forward to the trip to the reputed haunted castle, the waterfall abseiling down 15m, the trip to the place full of stray dogs, the hotel near the forest, the lodge we're gonna stay that is full of leaches, cave exploration that is full of bats hanging down from the cave that we have to get down on our knees and crawl in the mud. oh gosh. ok but the thing i AM really looking forward to without freaking out for is the white water rafting. woootts!(: yay, ok but for the rest i still want to uptake my challenge and enjoy the adventure man! && plus after that, family trip to bangkok is gonna rawk cos i'm gonna spludge,. yay(:

ok now that i really start picking up blogging i realise i have so many things to say over the days. argh if only i had a good state of mind to do so. now everything can pour out in one loonnngg post.

just now i went to j8,supposed to buy logists for spf camp with edna and beaunice. woah, and when i reached there, they got everything ald. luo ting was there too. so i just had to help carry things back from bishan and travel all the way back to pasir ris again. argh.

just now was doing my chinese bao zhang. i havent wrote my yin xiang yet and i suddenly feel like blogging so here i am. so i dont think i'll go online again to nite, maybe only after i'm done with my compo and maybe another of my chinese practise paper or smth. gosh, still have to do my tent pitching stuff! but hey, guess it'll all pay off after the sec1 and 2 guides learn it in spf camp. jiayou us(:

ytd was quite an interesting nite, esp when things start to get more evident of how obsess (gal) is with (guy) hahaha. i cant say the names here or ppl might start killing me if they see this. safety precautions. but its interesting how each sceneario gets more exciting and how it piece into a story. hey the story hasnt end yet and i so want to noe wads the ending soon. ok maybe that'll be like in 6 months or more.

haha still, thanks gillian for sharing all the interesting moments with me. like how you send that msg, omg its still making me laugh when i think of wad you did hahaha!

hmm lets see wad else can i blog abt

ohoh, i still cant believe i typed so freaking much on msn to yr that he's like the first person that i've finished my msg history tt i've to start a new one. and that's like only over a spend of how many months since my com revived from the virus? argh. but its cool and i'm so not complaining abt it, all the best for results dude!(:

and oh yes, adrian, dont sleep too late alright! jiayou with your ncc stuff i noe you can do this, its just for a short time and i noe you're gonna pull thru!

hmmmm. joey's bdae is coming in like5 more hours! yay.

this is like one of the longest posts i've ever written, somemore no photo spam sia. not bad charlotte!

Lord i want to rely on You even more now

so take my life and let it be

as i look up to you as my tower. shelter and refuge

you'll forever be my very present help in time of need

2009-10-16T19:02:00.002+08:00

If my heart has grown cold,
There Your love will unfold;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
When I'm blind to my way,
There Your Spirit will pray;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Oceans will part; nations come
At the whisper of Your call.
Hope will rise; glory shown.
In my life, Your will be done.

Present suffering may pass,
Lord, Your mercy will last;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
And my heart will find praise,
I'll delight in Your way,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

2009-10-09T21:10:00.002+08:00

you said i aint insignificant

my 100th post!(:

2009-10-07T20:41:00.004+08:00

HOORAY TO MY 100TH POST(:

hahaha today studying with brenda at her house was quite productive and hilarious. its meaningful how everytime we start side tracking we'll talk abt funny and amazing stuff hahahah! its so qiao we got almost the same dream, (pregnant??!!) omg man! hahaha

"wad happens when acid reacts with metals above h2 in reactivity series?"

"erhm when reacted, salt and h2 will come out"

hahah! hey at first i didnt noe wad she was laughing abt only when i answered another chem question of hers and said the same thing and she started laughing again then i realised hahahah!

oh and today i'm so kuku man. so many train incidents. from brenda's hse i took the bus to eunos mrt. then i was approaching the escalator. then on the left was the escalator, on the right was the stairs to the platform. above the escalator was the sign "to joo koon", on the stairs there was "to pasir ris". then omg i was so stupid i was like thinking to myself "i'm going pasir ris way so i must go to the left" then omggg. i was like ald at the foot of the escalator then i suddenly turn around to want to take the stairs. everyone started staring, like why am i taking the stairs suddenly when i was ald at the escalator.

ok fine. save the embarassment. the train came. i hopped on. train starts moving. reaches next station"

"paya lebar"

"OH DAMMIT. since when paya lebar was before eunos towards pasir ris!" oh dammit. immediately i look up at the sign thingy on the train, shit. and dashed out of the mrt to the next platform.

just how stupid can i get when i just got an incident b4 that abt pasir ris pointing to the right, and i'm boarding the left train?! omg omg this is was studying too much can do to you ahhaha!

but studying with brenda was produtive no doubt hoho(:

jiayou everyone, we can pull thru all tgth!

hey dude pls hold your tongue and ppl'll trust you even more(:

2009-10-06T18:29:00.003+08:00

yay(: studying with brenda after sch tmr cos we each deperately need to exchange bio and chem notes with each other, seeing how we suckkk at it at this rate our teachers are going! oh mannn but yes i'm looking forward to it!

only started studying at 4.30 and gosh, now staring at my hardly done 10 year series for chem is worrying. guess i'll complete it soon enough. jiayou char(:

sch today was normal. somehow everytime when i start blogging now i can hardly rmb all the interesting things that happened. prob my memory's failing me, or my life's getting more dull.

hahah going home with gillian today aft a long break was funny. its funny when i think that he and his level mates are gonna shout the school song tmr. hahahha. anyway,all the best with it tmr, hope you have some drama on yourself, though its gonna be quite hard for me to be there (:

now back to my 10 year series.. sighhh.

Lord you say you're never leave nor will you forsake me, so i'm forging on with the confidence and your strength to guide me thru, all till the very end that you'll take me to wherever you bring me

2009-10-04T21:02:00.001+08:00

arghhh. revision's so crapy man. fell asleep as usual. and only managed to do hist geog and ss for the two days, need to do math now, grrr

currently talking to uly online, and oh gosh, the ghost stories he's telling me freaks me out man. heh. ghost hunting hur(: hahaha. oh gosh, and my printer's nuts. cant seem to print things straight for nuts. mannn.

i'm not supposed to be on the com for so long but i'm so confused, its just the feeling when you realise you're missing out on so many things in life.

and when you rly cant control the whirlwind of emotions anymore

come on charlotte, its going to be over soon. let God lead the way, and you'll be blessed by the things he has planned for you(:

with all i am Lord i commit again

2009-10-02T19:05:00.002+08:00

chinese exam totally was so screwed for paper omg omg omg but on the other hand there were areas which wasnt so bad. oh goshhhhhhh i sooo dont want to go for piano tmr man. sux sux..

hahahah gillian! i'm still laughing over wad you told me ytd. not bad, its rly damn crazy sia. anywya dude, jiayou for your olevels too.

2009-09-29T20:29:00.002+08:00

watching the fann wong and chris lee wedding now. aft tt i'm so gonna mug again.

JIAYOU EVERYONE FOR EOYS!(:

mugmugmugmugmug

stay focus and not get distracted

i really really need the revival again

2009-09-27T19:42:00.007+08:00

hey steady there charlotte, you're doing great

its this rare opportunity nows adays where i tell myself i should blog today but in the end when i use the com i cant drag myself to blog, cos the words just cant come out. its that struggling thing. hoho.

anyways, today was quite reviving. after church. went home. study chem (hopefully i rmb my stuff). did two log question and i couldnt get the correct answers. gave up. and went jogging with priya. not bad not bad. its been really long since i jog so properly. jogging sessions in sch are kinda like me dragging myself to jog. but this time is the "i want to" mood. yay.

finally i recovered aft being sick for one week. i slept at 9 on thu and friday. not bad hoho.

my revision's going rly terribly so the next time i need to, erhm, report to yr (HAHA its an inside story) i rly dunno how to compare to his super super fast speed in revision. he still has so much free time to go online and slack hur(;

its funny how sometimes we cant define how we feel of another person, and when you dunno wad to feel. when he's ald decided smth else and you've kinda go with it, but at the same time, cant completely live with it. it's confusing and can drive ppl nuts. hoho(:

hey dude, seriously get a life yeah. let others see the real man in you, and they'll love you for that i'm sure. there's better opportunities for you next time, really(: steady and dont rush yourself!

~

i think i noe wad you're up to, and i'm just being myself. pls pls pls,that move totally gave yourself away! but still, i'm letting things take its way and stay calm and cool(:

2009-09-19T20:04:00.004+08:00

spent the whole day doing math
trigoooooo

aft tt i fell asleep for 2 hours, ate dinner, then went online.

i promised myself i wont go there anymore, but apparently i was too curious. the emotional turns start again.

searched frantically to see if sam has gone offline. she hasnt, sighed in relieve, so immediately went to talk to her. before that i went to dawn's blog, and chanced upon a song i used to sing in church last time, and now its playing in my head and it totally reflects how i feel now. talking to sam rly helps. she listens(: i feel so much better.

felt calmer.

starts blogging.

when i saw wad you wrote there, once again i was overwhelmed with emotions again. i noe i did wrong too, it was it was my fault undeniably. though i noe we havent been talking much for rly rly long, yes i'm feeling more lonely and smth in my life's just gone. i've definately learned from it, and its just so heart warming to see all of you become even more closer. i want to be part of the team again, but if God really dosent want it to happen, and everything seems best the way it is now, i will let go. i'm praying for you too everyday.

into your hand
i commit again
with all i am
for You Lord

You hold my world
in the path of Your hand
and I'm forever Yours

Jesus i believe in You
Jesus i belong to You
You're the reason that i live
the reason that i sing
with all i am

i'll walk with You
wherever You go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in You

and i will live
in all of Your ways and
Your promises forever

i will worship i will worship You forever

Lord i dont noe wad to feel now
i just need a miracle
guide me thru the right way
open her heart
and show Yourself strong through it all

damn the pics cant seem to align properly gosh

2009-09-16T19:04:00.015+08:00

YESSSS!! my blogger can work again today! oh gosh, i'm so happy hoho(: since it's quite a rare opportunity for this to happen i shall blog properly again. yay yay

ok stare hard at this picture and you'll see smth in between my sis and my dad. hahaha that's my cousin, the effect it has on him spinning is uber cool!

just came home from guides and i suddenly had the urge to blog in my patrol blog later, it has to be updated really really urgently! gosh, esp since it hasnt been updated for loonggg.

guides was not bad today, me, mel and abigail taught the sec1s how to pitch a tent. the sec1s learn quite fast and hopefully they understood wad we were saying, hope it wasnt too fast! but gosh, i think my thumb kinda bled halfway, i think i cut on smth or smth happen. but i'm ok(:

on a random note, it's so hilarious how my sisters only realised my nail polish after two days of putting it, and my mum, after four (or isit five) days hahaha.

gosh, math is so so so damn hard now. later aft i've done my math hmwk i've got to work extra hard and practise on it, gosh.

now then i start uploading my ayc pics from my hp to my com hoho. super super late sia

ok time for the super super long over due photos!(:

uly uly(:

clarence and uly with thier red and white nail polish. hoho(:

one of the days to sentosa for ayc orientation dry run(: priya, kaushi, me! oh gosh, and yes, i think i need to dedicate a post to both of them some day., priya and kaushi, must remind me soon ah!(:

amanda and i(: yay hope you enjoyed ayc!(:

yelin, kaushi and me. taken last day after debreif (or was it before debrief)

on national day! supposed to be me and surya only but yr became extra and came in hur hur(: hahaha

PREFECTS!! yay baby. the ops and trg ayc com vs and cedar psls took their own pic (which was like so overcrowding compared to ours) so we took our own prefects photo. hoho

hehehhehe everyone looking at diff directions except me hahaha

mat looks SUPER COOL!!!!(:

AH BENGS...

AND EVEN MORE HAHAHA

surya and i aft farewell dinner! oh gosh, sooo dark!

half of trg! and ryan in his yellow ayc tee on national day heheh

ok i must emphasise this, yuan rong looks super super glam here!! ( i think he just woke up from his sleep or smth actually but yea, looks DAMN GLAM!)

yay i dunno which direction we're looking at, must be too many cameras focusing on us heheheh

PATROL OUTING!!! orchid is the bomb!

yayyyy sec2s and 3s of orchid awesomest of the awesomest(:

clearer pic(:

in the sun (: i rmbed i nearly fell in the rollerskates hahahha.

lj to museum on wed or smth(:

the coach rly damn disgustin when blended with our uni. oh gosh

guides!!(:

2009-09-14T21:35:00.003+08:00

dammit. the blogger toolbar is still not back and this is getting me so so sian of blogging ald. prob thinking to changing to word press or livejournal or smth soon.

i need more inspiration

his agony at the garden

2009-09-13T21:43:00.001+08:00

today in church we had an awesome sermon,and i was thinking so much about everything on my part as Pastor Chia was speaking, and it was so meaningful cos it really helpped me get a grip of myself and everything that i'm facing.

and yes Lord,
i'm gonna submit myself to You,
just like how Jesus did as he went thru his agony at the garden of gethsamane

he did not retailate against his enemies,
so just as i am here in my own battlefield,
i will not retailate

because You will never fail me
in You i find rest

2009-09-11T22:32:00.000+08:00

i'm so gonna promise myself that i'm not gonna read or have anything to do with it until i'm totally over it

it takes time for the wound to heal

the revivial!

2009-09-10T21:22:00.007+08:00

YEAH BABY! MY BLOGGER IS REVIVED. cos i dont feel sian cos i see my toolbar back here again! can post pics yay yay yay(:i feel so happy now(:

ohoh anyway, sorry to everyone that i locked my blog for awhile, it's gonna be livelier and less emo now i promise(: (thanks to the ppl who asked me why i locked my blog, and were concerned for me once they knew the reason, it made me realise how many ppl cared for me out there)

gosh i hate it when i dont noe wad to blog abt. so many things have happened but i dunno where to start!

anyway, on a random note, i realised a few days ago that one of my yellow ayc tee is stained by some black and disgusting thing, like omg man. it looks so horribly old and worn out when i only wear it for like once at home. sucks. my mum went to wash it with some black clothes and my shirt became blackish. YUCK.

ohoh, went shopping with sam on mon(: and i finally bought my sch bag! yayyyy, hahah sam, i can accompany you to get your zebra bag soon(:

half my hols are spend to mug mug and mug, it can get really boring but i realised i'm kinda more focus as compared to mid years and ct3. yay(:

it's so amazing how God chose to take some things away from you, but at the end of it all you'll just realise that it's for the good in the end i guess, the pain or tears may be for the moment, but in the end you'll be comforted and reassured by God's amazing love and all the frens around you(: i feel so blessed(:

ok great, aft not blogging properly for so long i so dunno wad to blog abt anymore.

ohoh

yayyy, ytd went for trg gathering at jiaying's hse! had fun(: TRG COM FTW. it's just so amazing how frenships can be held so deeply and strong within 13 ppl when we just met in a matter months. and its so amazing how we miss each other so much, how we've all learn abt each other, and how we've all grown tgth.

at first, i met kaushi at py to get my (low-fat) pandan cake and help adrian to buy food. then in the end we went to sing post fair price, got pudding for adrian, then yr called and said he meet us there too, cos i was supposed to help him buy drinks too. then suddenly he called me...

"hello, are you at fair price there, cos i just got dropped off from the car and i can meet you there, cos i need go toilet, super urgent"

omg we burst out laughing, dunno why but the sound of it over the phone when he was telling me was super super funny and we couldnt stop laughing till the end.

"HAHAHAHAHAH - yeah ok, we're at fair price- HAHAHAH- we get sprite, coke- HAHAHA- and f&n for you ah"

"HAHAHAH- okok, i go help you carry later-HAHAH"

then we met adrian when walking towards the mrt, sorry we kinda made you walk back!

then uly and ryan joined us, and the way uly made his entrence was DAMN AWESOME. cos we knew he was on the same train as us, we told him to meet us in the carriage with the blue (or was it green? haha) seats. we were in the mrt carriage, then suddenly at one of the stops he suddenly jumped behind us, it gave us quite a big shock hahahah. when he came in he was like "haha, you noe it was so crowded for me to squeeze thru so many carriages to get here, so every stop i got off the train and rushed back into the train from the next door on the right" until he found us. damn cool(:

we played taboo, and yayyyy, our team worn! haha the other team didnt do their forfeit though, but its ok, we had loads of fun.

dinner was awesome as well, ppl should start eating more of my (low-fat) pandan cakes! HAHA. it was super hilarious when i met kaushi ytd at the bakery shop, then i was like "shit,. no pandan cake!" then kaushi was like "is here wad! the cake with the circle circle thing in the middle!" haha, then she came up with this funny idea that we should have gone to ask the aunty to squeeze out all the fats, and then we would have been charged an extra dollar HAHA, and when she said it to trg ytd nite, it was super hilarious. then when doro passed me the box of chocolate biscuit thing, she was like 'sorry i dont think this is low fat" erhhhh wth, now everyone thinks i only eat low fat food! hahahah then siang huat was like "is ok, eat all and as much as you can tonight, then we shall do a work out tonight" HAHA it was super funny when jia ying said it sounded sick. oh man hahahah, we burst out laughing(:

we had many many story telling sessions aft tt hahaha. and it kinda scared me alot. with all the murder case and everything, oh mannn until i got super super scared when yr cont telling me at nite, i was ald super super freaked out hahah(:

but overall, i must say the whole gathering brightened up my boring day, its nice to see everyone back again, the one big family(: dont ever let the bonds break!

bleh, the hols are gonna end so quickly, and i havent studied much, oh nooooo ):

thank God for things bright and beautiful

2009-09-02T21:33:00.002+08:00

why is it just so painful to see smth you hold on so dear to you snatched away from you so brutally
why is it just so hard to make others understand how things really are and the true feelings felt
why is it just so hard to be strong and fight 3 different fronts at the same time
why is just so difficult not to feel so tired of life ald that you dont even bother to try
why is it just so hard to hide the tears

Lord the 2 struggles you gave me, you helpped me survive thru
now the biggest rock you set in front of me, i need You even more

i miss the energy i used to have
everything's weighing down on me so hard i can hardly define my emtions anymore
and now even the emotional barrier is hurting me from expressing how i truly feel

get me out of the storm and step into the sunshine

2009-08-31T14:53:00.001+08:00

mixed feelings can drive the world crazy

2009-08-30T14:49:00.002+08:00

You Are Hesitant in Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You tend to take more than give in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.

People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

2009-08-29T18:50:00.002+08:00

yayyyy. today's gonna be a free day for me. things feel more relax now that i think that it's kinda relax days till tues. but i guess time's just gonna fly so so quickly.

today nothing much happened though. just that i spent the whole time smsing and listening to music at the same time when doing my hmwk. hopefully more exciting things will come up soon(:

tmr's grandma's bdae dinner at some restaurant(: and goodness. some irritaing person with fever went to sch and my sis kena. and her whole class the next day 20 ppl never go sch. wth man. and my sister not even wanting to pracise social responsiblity too. eat dinner with my family still use her spoon to scoop veggi. arghhhhh.

yay tmr youth alive is having frisbee! gosh, the whole time i was in ayc, it just made me realised how much i missed going to church and how much i feel so detached from God. now i'm learning to treasure every sunday i have(: and thank God our cell's getting more lively and active(: yay yay(:

it's You i live for everyday

and omg, i today when i accidentally click my dad's blog then i realised that he private it hhahah

SPORTS DAY!

2009-08-28T20:22:00.002+08:00

yay i can upload pics today(:

firstly, sports day went well i must say, good job to the ics for sports day, yan xin, ,maria, nadia and jeslyn, you guys did a great job and the hard work put in to do your proposals and cue tables, and liasing with the teachers paid off(: thanks for always keeping me updated with your events too!

CONGRATS TO GUIDES, i noe you guys could do it, to deseriee, mel, phoebe and me(; yay yay. it was heartwarming to see all the guides crowding at the railings beside the track just to support, until the mcs and teachers had to ask the guides to go back to thier seats. thank you sec4s for the very loud g-double-o-d cheer for us once all 4 of us headed back to the grandstands. thanks amirah and sharyl for your milo and choc(: to the sec1 and sec2 guides, thanks for faithfully doing your yeo-man service today, thank you for your drinks and your efforts, and also supporting during our run(: to beaunice and sam (haha beaunice, sam told me you took a pic) hahah thanks for taking photos, i want to see the cool one! hahahah(: and to the rest of the sec3 guides, thanks for cheering your hearts out(:

to deseriee (sorry if i spelt wrong)

mel

phoebe

i noe you guys had muscle cramps and all but you guys still persevered through the pain and gave your best, together we form a great team!

to zhi hui, you've been a rly nice person to train with, mel phoebe and i knew how much deep inside you rly wanted to represent guides but we were amazed at the strength and cheerfulness you managed to show. thanks for the happy trgs, the support, and also for replacing me at the prize presentation cos i had to run 4by4(:

to caryn, hey i noe you were supposedly another reserve or smth, sad i didnt manage to train with you on the last trg, but good job anyway(: hopefully you managed to get your milo and choc too!

to joelance, taffy and rachel(: we four made a great team and i noe we all gave in our best effort yea? lets not take wadever happened to heart. its the experience that matters most and how we pushed on abiet the challenges posed to be tough against us. stay strong, stay cool! (:

went shopping at orchard with joelance, wan ting, shi hui and mabel today. gosh we walked like 4 shopping malls in orchard?!and oh gosh, we got lost from the mrt to far east, supposed to be walking towards it, and we just walk and walk, until we asked the stall lady how to go then we realised that we were all along walking away from it. oh man so retarded! haha. but i guess everyone enjoyed themselves (rite mabel? hahaha with her "i feel like chopping off my legs" and "i think i need to go to the toilet" like over 4 times tt shopping trip - which meant about one time an hour, until we kinda got sick of the toilet that everytime she mentioned toilet only we tell her to control) HAHA yes we had fun(:

thank you father for this day

for the events that happened

for this not-emo post(:

help me to cont to find rest in You

2009-08-26T21:55:00.005+08:00

(just not seeing my toolbar in blogger again makes me sian of blogging again): )

thank you for accompanying me today although i didnt explicitly told u i wanted u to, thank you for sacrificing time off. i'm loss as to wad to say, but all i just want to say is tt i was looking forward to it,someone whom i can just relax and take my mind off all that i'm going through at almost at the end of the day.

You gave it all for me
My soul desire, my everything
And all I am is devoted to You

How could I fail to see
You are the love that rescued me
And all I am is devoted to You

And oh, how could I not be moved
Lord here with You
So have Your way in me
Cause Lord, there is just one thing
That I will seek

This is my cry
My one desire
Is to be where You are, Lord
Now and forever
Its more than a song
My one desire
Is to be with You
Is to be with You, Jesus

i lift up my hands for all You've done for me
who i am and
what i am
all i want is to serve with a higher purpose for You

2009-08-25T22:29:00.000+08:00

Lord with Your strength i'll pull thru the emotional turns

2009-08-23T00:29:00.005+08:00

just having to go thru one in a week is enough
and it just have to happen right again,
this time the heavier one.

when all you want to do is blast the music into your head
and cry your heart out

Lord You've a reason for me to put me thru this
is it just a wake up call?
or is it just a painful reminder
Lead me to my needs Lord

so i'll walk on salvation
your spirit alive in me
this life to declare your promise
my soul now i stand

so i'll stand
with arms high and hears abandoned
in awe of the one who gave it all

my soul Lord to you is surrended
all i am is yours

AYC AWESOME(:

2009-08-21T22:35:00.006+08:00

YAY FINALLY I CAN UPLOAD PICS ONTO MY BLOG, SO HERE GOES(; (and more pics to come too) this rawks, i noe this is not spamming it enough yet, cos there's like283749283749287 photos taken on ayc, but these are just some from my fb, those in my hp, i havent even upload yet!! gosh, so here are pics, to brief intros to our recollections of ayc, forever in our minds(:

asean day! spent the first half of the day with yuan rong doing the booth. haha kinda slacked alot actually though(:but yays to yr my buddy for tt day ahhaha

here's the gals being mena before national day celebration! haha we were all camwhoring during dinner, and totally skipped our dinner just for it!

and since, theres the gals, here are the guys being ah bengs! hahahah featuring uly, ryan, surya, ben, and yr hahaha

this was some random day that we took it in the ops room in nus high i think. look at the board! TRAINING RULES like totally(: and we managed to squeeze everyone's name into it!! thanks adrian for that cool idea(:

closing ceremony! oh gosh, look at our super uber pro mc for closing ceremony!(:

I WANT MY PO-LA-RIOD PIC-TURE!! cool rite!!! (:
taken also at nus high, on national day!!!

this is i think at j8 for asean day or smth, i cant rmb clearly. oh gosh wait, why isit only me and kaushi in yellow tee. kk nope i think its some other random i cant rmb when(: taken with the awesome vietnam delegates!

ASEAN DAY!! look at the space we're pointing at! specially for JUKS, DORO, SIANG HUAT! haha oh gosh WE MISS YOU JUKS BTW!! (:

yayyy me and kaushi with our vietnam delegate who simply loves taking photos so much! hahaha AND KAUSHI AND HER PINK HEART BALLOON hur hur(;

before we all started cam-whoring on national day we were all playing with our super cool lightsticks(; and look at mat! hahahha

ULY WITH RED AND WHITE NAIL POLISH, wa so patriotic huh(;

COOLLLLL(:

CLOSING CEREMONY! one of our final-est experiences left for ayc before the tearing all starts): trg com cedar and vs (now where is ryan!)

tgth with zhong ming our dear alternate chair person! hahaha

asean day, korea board! hahah uly why u not wearing yellow shirt! hahah (from left, me, surya, priya and uly(: )

GUYS ON TOP, GALS BELOW, and i think priya and yr just switched their gender! hahahah(:

national day with lightsticks(;

NOW FOR FAREWELL DINNER NITE! (last nite of ayc)

this pic is my hp wallpaper too! makes me tear when i see it, but it's one of the coolest and nicest pic! last nite( farewell nite) look how happy we were, but at the same time, sad that we noe its all gonna end): ( from left, ee fong, adrian, surya, ryan, ben (who looks HAHAHAH) endy, brenda, matilda, hanan, kaushi, yr and me!)

nice nice(:

light sticks with hanannnnn!! coolll(:

again with our vietnam delegate! (:

farewell nite was awesome, like totally(: most of the performances were songs and dance, and trg sang LOVE STORY haha our speciality!

TO TRAINING COM! i just wanna say how much i'll miss us all tgth, all the fun times we've had as a com, admist all the stress, the tears, the pain of the hardwork and effort to plan everything, there's alwys the joy, the fun, the love, the heart for one another. i will forever rmb AYC TC, AYC YLTC, AND LASTLY all the fun times we've shared at AYC itself. our specilaites (love story (which we sing almost everyday tgth HAHA and the guys singing it off tune in the bath HAHAHA), peace like the river, the trg hand shake!! the frenships we've shared, the memories tt'll always be left stuck in our heads. the photos, the tears, the laughter, the meetings, the late-nites,YMCA, late-nite dinner, slacking during lectures, orientation at sentosa! everything i'll always rmb.,

Juks,

Ye Lin
Siang Huat

Uly

Steph

Doro

Ryan

Adrian

Yuan rong

Surya

Priya

Kaushi

TRAINING COM WE'RE ONE COOL CAT, cont to let that light shine in us, tgth as one! and lastly,

ALOT.

nothing can be more precious

2009-08-19T20:17:00.000+08:00

gosh
i still have juks' last email before she leaves in my email inbox and i havent read. only intend to read aft my tests end, or i think i'll start crying.

todays chem was ok i guess, emath was horrible. ah but its over anyway(: geog geog geog., tell me how i'm supposed to squeeze 2 themes into 5 hours before i fall asleep! oh man):

teachers day ):

as the going gets tough
Lord you're still with me

2009-08-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

i'm too tired and drained to blog

Jesus take the wheel

2009-08-04T22:55:00.000+08:00

Lord show yourself strong.

i sit staring infront of the com. so many things to think abt, so much to learn.

Lord help me not to fall deeper no matter how perfect the picture is gonna be, it's never perfect without you.

at the foot of the cross,
all my pain, my troubles and worries,
i surrender it all

2009-07-29T13:00:00.000+08:00

"His heart is secure, he will have no fear." -Psalms 112:8

2009-07-28T17:49:00.001+08:00

Lord with Your strength, i can forge on

i should have known. first siti fell sick, then joy, and it's my turn.

broke down ytd nite, i couldnt take it anymore. it was as if inside me everything was crashing and breaking apart. felt so horrible.

slept like a pig today.this morning, my dad woke me up for sch at 6, then i felt so horrible i took my tempt, and my mum didnt believe me i had a fever. but in the end she brought me to the doc and i got my mc, but i'm missing sch and ndp today and tmr, grr ): hopefuly i can catch up when i get back

on a lighter note,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERNARD!! sorry the blogger toolbar is still gone, if not i would have enlarge the happy bade part. haha., but anyway, we've been even closer lately, thanks for listening to me ramble on everytime, jiayou and all the best for all your upcoming assignments. and this is to make up for not wishing you ytd properly,but told you i was sick first ): sorryyyyyy): on a lighter note, thanks for all the help and listening ear,i owe you so much! sgftw(:

2009-07-27T18:55:00.001+08:00

oh gosh, i really dont want to fall sick! convention's around the coner and i'm ald having a cough, oh man. that day kaushi and i were talking and we were saying that me and rachel are the only pc exco in ayc that is left healthy. and damn. today we both have cough ald! heh but rach! lets stay strong tgth, we wont get anything more than cough yah!(; haha(;

oh gosh, i feel horrible when i read ppl complaining abt other ppl blatanly thru their blogs, worst still, i noe that person ):

bleh, i just went to trim my fringe, and its horribly disgusting. hopefully it'll grow soon, then i can get over it. oh man): enough experience over salons and haircuts, or prob its just me thats the problem when i'm not used to it yet, grrr

Lord forever i need your strength to carry on

2009-07-25T18:11:00.005+08:00

HAHA nic! its not ndp parade actually. its sch ndp parade! hahah(:

and bleh, my blogger still has some problem, i cant change anything, not the font colour and everything. dammit.

i just woke up and i got so pissed omt, i was supposed to be sleeping only for half an hour but in the end my alarm clock didnt ring., oh man, so in the end i didnt study, and i dunno if i should go for the bbq later. dammit.

but ayc was ok though, oh gosh, yes casper you are rite, i should have gone home with you instead, save more time. bleh. sorry sorry, plus sorry i didnt reply your sms COS I FELL ASLEEP, and woke you up instead when i replied. dammit. today everything isnt going well. gosh.

OH, today i went home from ayc, my mum come and tell me the stupid washing machine keep leaking. i think it was quite bad just now, so tmr she not going church cos the plumber can only come tmr morning. so i got to lead sunday sch singspiration alone, bleh, oh but good my mum got shannen to help me(; yay. but so irritating la! everything in my hse is still falling apart. we just got a new fan (i think i got blog abt it a few weeks ago) and the stupid heater, still cannot work. now the washing machine floods my hse. oh man.

PLUS NOW. everyone is falling so sick. siti, Jeremy, and dad! get well soon alright! praying for you guys de(:

i would say today isnt one of the best days of my life.

but this song cheered me up abit when i was searching for the lyrics for singspiration tmr.

Jesus, Lover of my soul,
Jesus, I will never let you go
You’ve taken me from the miry clay
You've set my feet upon the Rock, and now i know

I love you, I need you,
Though my world may fall, I’ll never let you go
My Saviour, my closest friend,
I will worship you until the very end

~ when everything starts to fall apart, Lord you are here with me to the very end~

2009-07-24T22:58:00.003+08:00

the week passes so fast! was telling ppl abt my damn hectic week and now it's ending. ayc is coming sooonnnnn! oh man. and there's smth wrong with my blogger here, i cant upload pics are change colour, the whole toolbar is gone! oh gosh, help!!

today we had ndp combined rehearsal with the rest of ugs, not bad for the first practise, i think we did well guides! lets do cedar guides proud!!

so many things happened this week i think i shall just randomly talk abt afew, cos some of them are long dead in my head. oh on a random note, we disected a sheeps heart ytd! oh man, me, sam, charmaine and soak teng were screaming like some bimbos, but in the end we got used to the cold thingy and all the blood and cutting it up was actually quite fun though HAHA(; cool experience!

oh man. on mon, we had ayc meeting at nite, aft 9 smth happened, i think me adrian kaushi priya yr were all freaking out, oh no): but we were not stalked, thankfully! but super freaked out. i dunno if i should say it here but i think i will say it soon when i have the time to(:

her story's sad but i'm still praying for her that she'll be protected.

went to istana to have tea reception with president cos we were chosen to represent cedar. it was a celebration for the mt everest womens' team who made it to the top of the mt, because 2 of the team members were ex cedarians! oh man, and we camwhored so much, mr anil was like a reporter! HAHA he even said a guard was suspicious of him taking so many photos, he even went up just a few cm away from the president to take 29384792837 photos! hahahah, then aft tt the sec4s, wa they damn daring, dare to ask all the impt ppl if we can take photo. so in the end, we took photos with the president, pm, minister, and the team! and other jumpshots and random shots hhaha(: the invitation card is supperrr coolllll!! gosh! haha, OHOH AND THIS IS SMTH TO BE HONOURED ABT, li li hui, who was one of the 2 ex cedarian is from CEDAR GUIDES ORCHID PATROL! woots!(:

many things happened for the pass 5 days, i shall talk abt them another time. time for beauty sleep for ayc tmr

Lord we need you now, heal Jeremy, and let your mighty work be magnified once again. ):

2009-07-17T22:25:00.003+08:00

keep the faith.

Lord i need the strength to carry on
my alpha and omega,
my beginning and the end

Lord as i keep falling down, pick me up with your mighty hands
and every shattered heart that i may face each time,
may you fill me with your peace and loving presence

when all else fails, Your love, never fails
Through it all You stay

2009-07-16T22:06:00.003+08:00

yayyyyy. sch was kinda sian today,

HAD TRIPLE MATHS. OH GOD. 3X 50MIN OF MATH

after triple math (last few periods of the tiring and draggyyyy day) me and sam went for dental appointment at cedar pri.

hilarious.

we were talking at the traffic light and waiting for the man to turn green. then we waited so long we got bored i showed her smth on my hp. then suddenly
"oh charlotte..." (sam)
"huh wads up" (char)
(char looks up to see the green man blinking)
"oh man, cross the road la!" (only then char realise wad sam wanted to tell char HAHA, the countdown beside the green man was ald at 10, and the traffic light we were waiting at was a t-junction, so that means it's like 3 times a noraml zebra crossing)

char and sam dashes across the road like mad. laughing like hell HAHAH oh gosh, all the cars at the t junction were staring at us for the first few 20 secs of the countdown HAHAH. so retarededdd. and the funniest thing was sam was just "oh charlotte" super stone. damn funny, i thought she will rush me across the road instead HAHA.

aft dental (it was super pain!) went to popular and spend more than $10. hahahah.

2009-07-15T22:03:00.007+08:00

i promised joey i will blog abt this. i was all for it but smth else changed my mood, bleh. but thank you bern, u have always been soo supportive when i tell you my stuff, thank you nic for offering your prayers too(: esp when you guys encouraged me so so much, when i just felt tired and tied down.

my pri sch clique are the bunch of frens i rly thank God so much for, aft so many years our frenship is still is strong as ever, always encouraging each other on and motivating each other, and still meeting up every hol. before that i was telling and thrashing things abt some stuff and they absorbed all that i said, gosh i feel so much better and so thankful. Thank you Father lets maintain the faith!(:

today sch was boring, chem was so weird! haha went home early though, then went shopping with joeyyyyy!! (: yay aft so long. we bought best frens keychain! and yay i found smth for ayc cultural nite at 80% discount omg. yay(:

camwhored the whole time aft we got our necklaces yayyyy(:

thank you joey so so much for that one time when i keep chill and relax, if not for that time i would have been more depressed, the impromtu shopping rly made me happier(:

just had mass convo with bern and nic (as above) and it was so comforting, thank God for great frens like you guys, the longest and strongest lasting frenships ever(:

and you. i rly didnt want to believe but i think i cant take it anymore alright. i rly dont want this to happen and i should have long listened to everyone else last year, i was so wrong and now its screwed. but aft this, i wont trust u as much as i wanted and used to anymore. i'm sorry ):

2009-07-13T22:00:00.004+08:00

(i forgot to add this photo to the post below - ayc orientation dry run at sentosa! we were so bored we started to camwhore again! hahah)

tagies!

joy! hihihihi(;

kaushi! hahaha you and your aryaaaaaaaaa(: hmmmm so many other more hot ppl laaaa(;

adrian! hahah yay thanks thanks(: thanks for all your concern too and everything(:

char c! (: yay my dear sister(; hahahah yay see your name is the only with a (: aft your name so cheer up yeah! though i'm so busy now i assure you i'll come talk to you every single time i can de, CHEER UP DEAR(;

Nic! haha yeah man! soon soon.(;

hey marlene and rachelllllllll(;

joey! haha yeah! bestie day out soon(:

azri! haha it's rly ok! i'm always here for you alright! no worries abt it, flooding is rly ok(: SMILE AND CHEER UP ya!

2009-07-13T20:51:00.004+08:00

oh damn, it's 9. i've been slacking for almost an hour. anyway yay today no hmwk aft soooooo long and i finally get to go home, SLACK!

talked to kaushi on the hp the moment i finish bathing cos i saw her miss call. not even 1hr, my mum started nagging at me as usual. bleh.

went home with joy again today, and we were talking abt. erhm, some stuff. hahahha. actually i do agree with wad she said(: but it was nice talking to her again like this aft sch(:

ayc on sat was not bad, quite fun! me and juks were gossiping abt stuff hahahahh(: hmmmmm. we shall cont some time online soon hhahaha(:

at orchard before ayc started, we were so bored waiting for hanan who was sooo late tt we camwhored(:

speaking abt wad happened during ayc, basketball was quite fun, but my hp batt dieded even before we reached sentosa, my ezlink card only left $1+, water bottle had no more water and not enough money left in my wallet. oh gosh, had to go straight home aft lunch, sorry grace, couldnt go for your 21 bdae celebration ):

today nothing much happened at sch though, but siti still owe me stories, riteeeee? hahaha, rushing off with kaushi to bishan tmr to meet grace. heh, and sian, there's tuition tmr nite, grrr.

OHOH LEADER INVEST IS CANCELLED! ):

oh yes, and thanks so much casper for your concern, yes like wad you said, i was kinda touched hahah(: i'm rly sorry if it sounded rly depressing but thanks for your concern(:

Jesus, beautiful saviour,

God of all majesty,

Risen king,

Lamb of god,

Holy and righteous,

Blessed redeemer,

Bright morning star

All the heavens shout your praise,

All creation bow to worship you

How wonderful, how beautiful,

Name above every name, exalted high

How wonderful, how beautiful,

Jesus your name, name above every name,

jesusI will sing forever, jesus i love you, jesus i love you

2009-07-10T21:10:00.004+08:00

oh man. this whole week has really been very tiring for me. emotions like a roller coaster ride, blow after blow. i've had enough. cca has stopped but yet the stress and anxiety is no better than when it hasnt.

LEADERS' INVEST IS ON TUESDAY, OMG??!! pc and psl exco needs to rush everything out by MON. come on man, we can do this yo! seriously if we all do this tgth, everything will turn out fine. fnb- oh god. today walked twice out of sch just to get the muffins, but all not halal certified, thanks priya for accompanying hanan and me to white sands too(: hhaha i noe i was complaining that my legs were damn tired. sorryyyy ):

wed was the worst day of the week so far, goodness. i must serioulsy learn to relax.

mt olevel oral. drove me nuts, how to ans the question!! abt teacher and student if they should treat each other like frens. gosh. plus my horrible chinese, how to pass!! ):

ever since the term even started i have been sooo busy it kinda strained all my relationships with frens. its rly sad when ppl start telling you you havent been the same like busy and all the time you spend on is anything but talking to them and caring for them the way you once did. i'm rly r;ly sorry, i rly dont want this to happen too ): but its like everytime you spend your nite late till 11, 12 plus and all you hope for is a rest, but then you think abt all your frens out there with ur frenship once held strong, when you feel the burden, everything just feel as if its crumbling.

Lord in You all things hold tgth, let's cling on tightly

my results are just so depressing, i noe i havent been coping well, and it just all goes to show that i need to manage my time even more): bleh.

but thankfully abeit all my busy-ness there were some ppl still there constantly checking if i was doing fine, thanks so much, and i rly rly appreciate it. I rly treasure our frenship and seeing that it's because of the hard times that made our frenship even stronger. thanks A and C (:

the thing's that cheering me up today is that tmr there's ayc. sam say now my whole life is like ayc and its written all over my face, pls la! (: yayyyyy tmr at sentosa for the aftnn part, still fun la!

Lord when trials come, all i have is only You

2009-07-06T22:16:00.005+08:00

FINALLY my mum bought a new fan today. it was making soo much noise the pass few nites and because i'm always the last one to sleep i always got to pluck my ear piece into my ears for music, rather than hear the annoying buzz. the things in my hse are mostly screwed. like the heater broke down last dec and no one bothered to change it, so we've all been bathing in cold water everyday grrrr.

went to bugis with my mum just now. like omg, for once! when i told sam, she was like "really??!! i have never heard of that from you!" hahahah.

didnt go for ayc trg meeting though it didnt rly concerns me, but when i reached bugis kaushi msg me to say they ald left, aww):

anyway tmr's gonna be results day, then meeting juks aft sch, not bad, first time she come our sch and meet us cos its gonna be damn impt, then aft tt must rush for chinese oral lesson. oh man

CHINESE ORAL. TELL ME HOW I SHOULD PASS!
all the best to everyone taking oral tmr, like PRIYA! jiayou!

ohoh before i forget,
HAPPY YOUTH DAY TO EVERYONE anyway(:

i'm getting tired, oh gosh
sleepppyyy

2009-07-05T00:16:00.002+08:00

hahahah, today uly lost 2342984792387 paper of nus high foolscap hahahah. and steph said she'll buy him 1 years supply hahahah

*
i dont want to lose that revival
why am i feeling so lost!

2009-07-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

oh man. CHINESE O LEVEL ORAL ON THURSDAY!

2009-06-28T15:45:00.002+08:00

Lord you have a reason for putting me thru all these
in everything and anything, i'm leaving it all to You

help me catch that fire

*
brain damage
helpless fatigue
( i am so not having eating disorders!)
Lord i need you

2009-06-25T23:58:00.007+08:00

yay i shall post a short one since i'm ald distracted by the com. great.

will cont with math once i'm done here.

hopefully i can finish revision in time, it's so rushy! oh man, why cant there just be extension of hols! ): gosh, and there's sat carnival at guides hq, means less time to finiish studying ):

shant worry, shall leave it all to God, He'll path the way for me (;

thank you J and A for your care and concern through out, lets jiayou together, glad we've become so much closer this week, rawk on(:

I have made You too small in my eyes
O Lord, forgive me;

And i've believed in a lie

That You were unable to help me.
But now, O Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong;
And in my eyes and with my song
O Lord, be magnified
O Lord, be mag - nified.
CHORUS:

Be magnified, O Lord
You are highly exalted;
And there is nothing You can't do
O Lord, my eyes are on You.
Be magnified,
O Lord, be mag - nified.

I have leaned on the wisdom of men
O Lord, forgive me;
And I have responded to them
Instead of Your light and Your mercy.
But now, O Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong;
And in my eyes with my song
O Lord, be magnified
O Lord, be magnified.

Be magnified, O Lord
You are highly exalted;
And there is nothing You can't do
O Lord, my eyes are on You.
Be magnified,
O Lord, be mag - nified.

tag replies! (man, i just realised the last time i actually replied was sooo long ago!)

adrian! haha cool rite!(: thanks for all the concern abt my mid years and all, i rly appreciate it! you jiayou too with your hol hmwk alright! (: give the drive yo!

Xuan Jie! haha yay(: talk to you soon on msn or smth bah(:

Niza! HHAHAHAHA. i do ok!! go check(: HAHA. anyway sorry for being always late at the mrt HAHAH. you noe you cant trust me when my dad's gonna fetch me to the mrt. HAHA. i'll still be lying in bed everytime u sms me aHAHAH. and hey, i didnt say you suck YOU SERIOUSLY RAWK GAL!

Joey! HAHA yay(: we need to go out soon! HAHAH. find some time with the rest to0 bah(; thanks for the calls which revived me this hol(:

Kaushi! yay! YES TRAINING RAWKS MAN. its the life yo(; thanks for the wonderful 3 days at camp! slept tgth ( i dont mean that way HAHA), ate tgth, played tgth!

Ben and charlotte. c! HAHA YOU GUYS SHOULD TAG MORE OFTEN HAHA

yR! haha yeah man! tc was awesome yo(: haha YES YOUR SLIPPERS FINALLY SKIPPED HAHAH. thanks for the wonderful three days at camp! (:

Ryan! Hhahaa yeah, thanks for your encouragement too(: haha hopefully can score well bah(;

Heather! Heh sorry to reply this so late, but if i have replied then it'll be like "yeah, tell me who's not"

Joan! Hahah hmm, i shall think abt it bah(: thanks for your offer though heh

Bernard! haha yup done(;

Terence! haha yay,. oh guess wad, he came talk to me that day, and it was kinda hilarious

Liyue! patience gal! will go with you soon to get it done heh(;

waa. joshua just said there're 315 cases of h1n1 ald,. woah so fast! haha anyway thanks for your support thru mugging too dude! (:

last 3 days of hols. treasuring.

2009-06-22T23:53:00.002+08:00

dang. no extended hols. gosh why!

Lord all i have is You now

2009-06-21T23:06:00.003+08:00

yay, happy father's day! today went out with the whole family after church, omg like after soooo long, i havent went out properly with my family and had so much fun before! gosh, we went to get my dad's specs done at far east cos he's specs broke HAHa.damn funny. had fun cos we camwhored. started playing with all the sunglasses, damn cool!

gosh, reminds me, I WANT MY CONTACTS SOONNNNNN,. arghhhh

yes, finally yuan rong's slippers can skip ytd HAHAH(; had fun at sentosa yo(:

AYC TC TOTALLY(:

2009-06-17T00:06:00.007+08:00

AYC TC RAWKS TOTALLY. like omg, all the fun we've had to bond tgth and all, it's rly amazing. TRAINING TRAINING TRAINING!!

so much happen during the camp, i rly dunno where to start. even though mid years were coming and we havent rly studied at all, i must say that the camp was rly awesome and worth it all, thank God for all things beautiful(:

the first day went rly well, just that i still rmb when half the time i was stressing out and worrying abt my "obama" speech for public speaking tmr. grr. was worrying like hell la. but good thing it went fine, thanks to trg for all the support and everything. I LOVE TRG(:

during bath time we had to go to some ulu coner of vs and cross all the dark places. scarrryyy. and super hilarious. there were some soccer guys outside the female toilet waiting for us to come out so they could bathe there too, omg. we were all screaming like hell HAHA/

at nite we went to ecp to have dinner, rly cool atmosphere with ziyad and endy playing the guitar and all. before that i was ald struggling with my super super heavy bag. dont ask me wad i dump inside, i didnt put a single gold bar okay(: then juks had to ask yuan rong to help me carry cos i was half dying down there ald. HAHA super hilarious. anyway he didnt had to carry much stuff cos he went home to bathe haha.

aft debrief at the park we headed back the office. then i was like, "crap, yuan rong not here to carry my bag le" (cos he went back to bathe) then surya was like "nvm, let adrian carry, let him do some work" HAHA super funny. and i was like omg no. cos he had his own stuff too, but in the end he help me carry haha. thanks so much to yr and adrian(:

at nite we stayed up even pass lights out to tell ghost stories. haha thankfully i wasnt that freaked out, still could survive. didnt get to study much anyway. slept at close to one aft all the ghost stories.

kena woke up by all the noise at abt 6.30 the next day. gosh. haha, then everyone gathered at the guys area and started talking. haha./\

the seconda day was rly dry with i think 3 or 4 acad sessions, but i must say that we rly bonded quite abit. trg comm rly rawks, we bonded like in day 2 and 3 the most(:

during all the acad sessions everyone was almost dying le, but still YAYS TO TRG comm, we persevered thru it all(: and cultural runway rly rawks. esp the prep part, we had so much fun! HAHA. with yr throwing his slippers into the pond and feeding fish with flower petals OMG. haha. erh seriously i was laughing like hell when yr suddenly threw his slippers in front of me into the pond HAHA. so retarded. but aww, it didnt skid like how a pebble would have haha.

thanks ryan for helping me thru my worries etc. and yuan rong for reassuring me.

at nite. after the camp that day we headed straight back to the office and BLAST THE MUSIC with yelin's ipod. gosh, his songs are like WOAH. we had super alot of fun and it totally cheered kaushi, priya and me up alot. we were kinda emoing during dinner with out pizzas. darling you can have one, frenship dance, peace like a river, etc totally cheered me up so much, it kinda took my mind off things. we were making so much noise even mr chu's wife told us all the neighbours in the opp blk were all looking out of the window to see wad's going on. the whole scene rly like disco, rly cool(; then when adrian returned from his wedding dinner he said he could even hear us from his mum's car. gosh i didnt noe we were that loud, we were on the third floor leh! haha but we had so much fun, it totally rawked omg. aft tt poor ops had to lock themselves in the room in the office to work on thier proposals again, JIAYOU ALRIGHT! whereas trg (plus andy from ideas comm) stayed outside and played indian polka cum truth or dare. gosh, we had so much fun, and yeah, nothing goes out of the circle!(: HAHA. REMINDS ME OMG. aft that nite of truth and dare, me priya surya uly adrian ryan all gonna stalk andy. omg he's like super pro in observing his's as good as a stalker la! gosh.

then that mr chu's son, omg. the small boy, he totally dosent even seem like 8 like wad surya said. he says "wth" and calls ppl to commit suicide during truth or dare HAHAH, and he even stays up till 1 plus with us that nite. kaushi was damn pissed at him cos she couldnt sleep at all. (hi 5 we both dont like children haha)

the third day was the coolest. like seriously.

in the morning we went down to get breakfast. i wasnt ald eating very well and had to throw almost a quater of my warfar(how do you spell that) haha. and during lunch, i just stared at my food after meal cheer and was like "crap, i sure cannot finish eating de". then ye lin was like "dont worry, i'm here for you" OMG HAHAHAH I WAS LAUGHING LIKE HELL. yelin never stops eating HAHHAH. seriously, like when we just reached vs on the last day trg was sitting down to chit chat, then suddenly yelin was like"how abt i go eat my breakfast" HAHA damn funny. i was super not hungry, and couldnt eat at all. and all the times i was hungry, during meal times i still couldnt eat. esp the third day, it was the most horrible and i was half convinced i was suffering from eating disorder somehow. even juks think i look like someone who has it, bleh, i dont ok! hhaha(;

tt morning joseph's sms somehow brightened up my morning. gosh i didnt noe you miss me HAHAH(; but yeah, it's good you told me abt it, i rly appreciate it(:

amazingly acad sessions for that day went rly well. world cafe was super cool, no doubt. me and kaushi learned alot from juks.

it ended off with lightsticks, video of unglam plus glam photos, 5 min long cheers, trg comm woosh, etc etc.

we sang love story with ziyad and endy on the guitar (they are DAMN PRO) with the vs guys emphasizing on the "princess" word everytime we sang it HAHA.

until it was rly rly dark and we all started walking out of school. kaushi pang seh me, so in the end went home with andy and adrian on the bus. andy is damn hilarious. oh gosh. anway thanks adrian for your bio notes(: rly appreciate it(: at first when kaushi pang seh us then adrian was like saying we could go to the other bus stop to catch the bus and it would be faster cos we were waiting like for half an hr le.i was objecting cos my bag was damn heavy. so he help me carry. and i was like objecting again, so andy suggested we put it ontop of his trolley bag hahaha. super funny. when we were walking to the other bus stop suddenly the bus came and we were chionging for it omg. haha. at pasir ris i had to carry my own bag again, and bleh, had blisters when i got home.

mum was freaking pissed again,. dont ask me why. long story. grr..

anyway i just want to say THANK YOU TO TRAINING COMM AND OC! you guys rly made this camp so possible and trg rly bonded so so much more. with just me and kaushi and priya screaming,now it's the whole comm screaming for trg. YAY WE RAWK OUR WORLD(;

thanks to CORE TEAM. all the hard work, the late nite debriefs you guys have, together with all the disco nites, totally made our day. we noe you guys rly put in so much effort into everything, soph, zhong ming, yy, jiaying, you guys are seriously the best, without you all, ayc tc would never have been something like wad it was. you guys are seriously like the heart of the core team.

thanks to JUKS. yay to our wonderful and awesome comm head(; thanks for all the hard work and planning too, you never failed to organize this camp and taking care of every detail of it all. juks, do noe that tc was the chance trg has shown so much in being behind you all the way, you totally rawk!

thanks to SIANG HUAT, although you are busy with army stuff but you still find time for facil sessions, it's pretty amazing(:

thanks to YE LIN, you are damn damn hilarious. we've grown so much during the camp and i've definitely know you better thru it. thanks for helping me eat my chicken and fishcake during lunch and "being there for me" HAHAH.

thanks to ULY, for your superb public speaking skills workshop, three times we've gone thru it, but three times we never felt it boring. it's rly amazing how we see thru it all, from ppt, to different ppt slides, to whiteboard, to majong paper HAHAH(; damn zhai(: thanks for all the memories in trg camp too.

thanks to STEPH, although i didnt exactly talked much to you during tc, but you seriously can facilitate damn well i must say(: thanks for all your support in anyway before this camp(:

thanks to DORO, thanks for your efforts in the tc booklet too(: sad you didnt get to come for tc, but seriously hope you're enjoying yourself in london!(; WE MISS YOU(:

thanks to RYAN, for all your solutions and encouragement thru out. it's rly amazing to see how we helpped each other during the camp, and i rly rly appreciate it. thanks for being there for me with all my worries etc. ( i think i worry too much oh gosh) but anyway, yeah you're a rly nice person and it's been a pleasure getting closer to you thru tc

thanks to ADRIAN haha i still rmb, your home ed 91 marks HHAH unlike me who cant cut the cultural runway cloth properly HAHA. thanks for facilitating with me, and helping me thru everything thru out. thanks for all the fun we've had during the camp. and for helping me carry my bag HAAH.

thanks to YUAN RONG for your reassurance when i told you abt my worry on the second day. thanks for everything. i must say we've been closer frens too during this camp, and thanks for all the fun we've had too, esp during cultural runway prep HAHA/.

thanks to SURYA too. you're super hilarious when it comes to bonding times. like all the times we've had, i used to think you were quite serious but now you can be so hilarious omg!

thanks to KAUSHI. thank you for your loudness. i dunno wad i'm crapping seriously but yeah, thanks for your awesome put up with priya in cultural runway. ALL THE WAY GAL(; dont worry too much, it'll be ok!(: TOILET PARTNERS(;

thanks to PRIYA, yay! we've been thru so much tgth during the camp. thanks for the fun we've had during truth or dare, thanks for accompanying me thru stuff. TOILET PARTNERS!(:

AND LASTLY
TO TRAINING COMM. WE'RE ONE COOL CAT(: CONT TO RAWK MY WORLD, AND BE THAT STAR IN MY NIGHT SKY(:

AYC TRG COMM IS LOVE(;

thank you Father for your amazing love
for you've set me upon this amazing journey
all my worries, all my regrets.
all that i have,
i owe it all to you

your love, is amazingly beautiful

2009-06-09T22:38:00.002+08:00

yay,. my com finally's revived! reformatted and all(:

thank you bernard and joshua(: i was rly touched when you said you'll get ur fren to help me and thanks joshua for helping me throughout the whole time for killing the virus. heh(:

ytd was not bad at ayc, nus high is super super cool! omg and i cant wait for ayc on sat! it's gonna be fun, esp at nite! woots!(:

finally after all the stuff i've done, i hope it's gonna pay off(:

seriously i need more drive to study,. this isnt working. and i'm not focusing well enough., bleh.

there's ndp tmr.(:

sorry Lord i didnt fall back on you and seek help when i should have

Hide me now

Under Your wings

Cover me

Within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with You above the storm

Father you are King over the flood

I will be still and know

You are God

Find rest my soul

In Christ alone

Know His power

In quietness and trust

When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with You above the storm

Father You are king over the flood

I will be still and know

You are God

help me have that closer walk with you in my live

2009-06-04T23:52:00.003+08:00

Thank God for today, although the whole day was spent to mug, but still, i must say it has been an interesting day

i told Him that i'll take each day and look forward to the adventures(:

thank you gor, for showing your concern for me today(: i was rly touched(:

thank you J and R for showing and helping me, and being my listening ear today.

thank you that i managed to study abit of bio and geog, even though half the time i was slacking away.

quarrelled with my mum just now,
she said i was spending too much time
and committing too much to ayc
seriously.
wad's her problem
she dosent like it when i'm happy here in ayc
she sees it as smth to waste time.
gosh ):

dont worry, i wont drop out, i wont leave training comm just like that
i havent completed my Training Comm duties yet
training camp hasnt even started yet
i wont leave

2009-05-31T23:16:00.003+08:00

haha ok i kena forced by kaushi to post,

but still, i'm so not blogging abt her HAHHA(:

anyway ytd and today were quite eventful for me, esp the 10 freaky things that happened to me and kaushi (well mostly to me HAHA KAUSHI) ytd. haha

get well soon jia lok(: drink loads of water yea!(:

today for church youth alive we had po piah making competition. super cool. they had to be 1m long. gosh. and the guys were super crappy. cant rmb wad exactly happened but just noe that we all had loads of fun(:

&& helpped gillian get an electronic dictioary for his olevels chinese tmr. gosh, bet he was super worried for only getting one at the last min sia. but still, all the best yea!(:

ok it's late, really should go soon(:

got inspired by this song which we sang in church for YA before the po piah comepetition(:

Thank you, Lord,

for the trials that come my way.

In that way I can grow each day

as I let you lead,

And thank you, Lord,

for the patience those trials bring.

In that process of growing,

I can learn to care.

But it goes against the way

I am to put my human nature down

and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,

my human nature

shouts the thing to do;

and God's soft prompting can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,

with each trial I feel inside,

that you're there to help,

lead and guide me away from wrong.

'Cause you promised, Lord,

that with every testing,

that your way of escaping is easier to bear.

But it goes against the way

I am to put my human nature down

and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,

my human nature shouts the thing to do;

and God's soft prompting can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,

for the victory that growing brings.

In surrender of everything

life is so worth while.

And I thank you, Lord,

that when everything's put in place,

out in front I can see your face,

and it's there you belong.

2009-05-29T20:34:00.002+08:00

yay, last day of sch. seriously it dosent even feel like it at all.

before morning assembly, met with the rest of the exco. came out of the pr for duty, OMG. REALISED THERE WAS A CATERPILLAR ON MY SHOE LACE. screamed like no body's business until the whole sec3 and 4 exco noe abt it. and joy y and wen min were trying to get it off before it even crawled into the shoe itself. or there would be more trouble then.

eng exam was fine(:

aft eng, went out to bugis, got some stuff.

went back to sch again for EXCO MEETING AND HAND OVER. omg it was just so cool. we spent hours talking in the pr and stuff. super crappy, but who cares(:

went home with siti after soooo long. gosh, i miss all the talking times! patrolling, crapping on the train, etc/

jiayou alright! i noe we're all in this tgth, so keep the flame alive!(:

I have made You too small in my eyes

Oh Lord, forgive me

And I have believed in a lie

That You were unable to help me.

But now,

Oh Lord, I see my wrong

Heal my heart and show

Yourself strong

And in my eyes and with my song

Oh Lord, be magnified

Be magnified, Oh Lord

You are highly exalted

And there is nothing You can't do

Oh Lord, my eyes are on You

Be magnified,Oh Lord, be magnified

I have leaned on the wisdom of men

Oh Lord, (Please)forgive me

And I have responded to them

Instead of Your light and Your mercy

But now, Oh Lord, I see my wrong

Heal my heart and show yourself strong

And in my eyes and with my song

Oh Lord be magnified

2009-05-26T18:48:00.001+08:00

please don't let me fall deeper
cos no matter how much i even want it
it cant happen

tmr. i'm prepared. heart attack.

2009-05-25T20:08:00.002+08:00

mid years are coming. oh gosh.

thank you darren for offering and calling me just now to study with me chem just only when i told you about my mid years. thanks for msging aft that to tell me i can call anytime to study. lets jiayou on tgth(:

i need the motivation

*
gosh.
one thing to be proud of, orchidian and sunflower won first for tent pitching on south div day on sat! woots!

beaunice
celest
rachel
nithya
zhi hui
(and of cos me^^ heh)
i'm proud of you alright!

keep the guiding spirit burning

CROSS COUNTRY totally rawks(:

2009-05-21T18:38:00.008+08:00

( from left, joelance, priscilla, rosa, me, alicia taffy)

i'm so glad i took part in cross country this year, if not i would have done pc duty. heh. ran for competitive running today. gosh, didnt noe i could complete 3.6km aft mths without trg and running that far! but it was totally an experience. last yr i couldnt run cos i was oi/c for that event, thank goodness this yr i ran!(:

was in the team with joelance, taffy, priscilla, alicia and rosa(;

le xin and taffy decided to take random shots(;

le xin, taffy, me, varsha, ashley (:

before it started, we had to walk to the starting point,. oh gosh, it was super hilarious when i overheard mr tan saying to some sec4s whom i think were not from his class "i think my class has chance to win" then i cant rmb wad the sec4s said, but he continued "my job is to demoralise all opponent competitors" HAHAH omg when i heard that i was started giggling and joelance turned to me HAHA, super hilarious, the way he said it. omg.

had to run first, unlike the mass run,. joelance had cramps, but yet we still pulled on. it was rly rly great., because no matter how hard it pained.,we still continued.

halfway we met mr leng,. and he saw alicia, taffy, joelance and i running tgth. supper hilarious. from afar, taffy was like "oh no,. mr leng there" HHAHA. gosh.

good thing i didnt get any get any stitches thru out. thank God(: joelance, taffy, alicia and i kept in pace with each other thru out. priscilla and rosa were behind us, but i noe they encouraged each on (:

gosh, we were rly rly happy when yi xin came to us "is this 3i? you guys are in top 3 class for competitive running!" YAY.

sam lai said the class is rly proud of us. YAY(: (charlotte feels honoured^^)

went to tampines mall with guides aft tt. this was taken before we left the stadium

this super cool shot is the reflection as we look out at the mirror above the escalator(:

woah i just realise smth. my feet isnt aching anymore(:

anyway

GOOD JOB

joelance

me

taffy

alicia

priscilla

rosa

and for 3i, i noe everyone's winners in our own special way(:

thank you guides for your encouragement while doing yeoman. reminds me, mdm faridah cheered rly funnily when i was running. something like "whee whee whee!" HAHA.
thank you everyone else for your cheers and encouragement when i almost dieded halfway thru the run(:

cross country's rly awesome
thank God for this wonderful opportunity
something like no other(:

2009-05-21T18:36:00.000+08:00

How well have I been keeping the Guide Laws?
Have I broken my promise?

--
have i kept my honour bright
shall i guiltless sleep tonight

2009-05-20T20:53:00.002+08:00

yay tmr's cross country. at least it's a time for me to slack and relax tonight.

good job to orchid and sunflower, for our tent pitching! i noe we can do better for the competition alright! (: let's do our best and bring glory to cedar guides(:
tent pitching makes ppl sleep early at nite cos it's so tiring but yea, its fun(:
yay i finally bought my seventeen(: and i bet sam will be happy(: haha

kaushi (:

i noe you can do it alright! seriously you've never failed to show me your full potential in everything., i've faith in you alright! guides - fellow orchidian, fellow black shoe, same pr duty day, ayc - same trg com, ndp squad 2008 and 2009, and in soo many thing else that we do, we're always tgth, thanks for having always been my listening ear, we'll jiayou tgth with everything we do, anything i'm always here for you to help you alrght!(: RAWK ON DEAR(:

joeyyyyy (:

jiayou for your rmun and your open hse for tmr alright! thank you for all the help and everything, God'll lead and guide you the way. thank you for all the times we've pulled thru tgth, and admist all our busy schedule, we never fail to miss a week without talking on the phone! thank you for all the fun memories(: jiayou and all the best for your assignments you're doing now, anything i'l willing to help alright! JIAYOU(:

2009-05-18T21:33:00.002+08:00

"a guide has courage and is cheerful in ALL difficulties" alex just reminded me abt that just now.

today esp towards the end of the day, it was super gloomy. and even more so aft sch, even more down, but hey, i'm offering it all to God(:

Hey Joey(:

in this difficult time, we're going it thru tgth, thanks for the prayers and everything.

Lord, here we stand before you
in your loving presence
and though things may not go our way,
or not as ideal as we would wish it to be,
we're still leaving it all to you
at your feet we surrender each and every burden

that we may see as too heavy for us to carry
u have perfect plans for us
we cast our cares upon you~
we entrust it upon you
Lord
calm our hearts and give us renewed strength
through it all

and let us not be weary
for the plans you've set aside for us
that we may emerge more faithful and Christ-like
and we'll see the glory soon
help us to put you in the center of our lives
and to exemplify you
to praise ur name
we're surrendering it all to you
in all that we do,
we honour u
amen

Jesus, i'm reaching out for you,

take the wheel

Lord, in every step i take,

let it be a reminder to carry myself the way you want me to,

to be the guiding light for others

just like how you have been for me

thank you for your amazing love,

and i'm trusting upon your mighty name

and help me never to forget that

if all else fails,

your love never fails

2009-05-17T21:24:00.004+08:00

sorry i havent been blogging for soo long, it's like things past faster then i can even rmb or even relate them. oh gosh.

oh man. mid yrs are coming really really soon! i seriously need to buck up and start studying oh man. i need the drive back arghhhh

ohoh, finally got promoted in guides! yay orchid patrol rawks, we're gonna be the best patrol and the most bonded patrol in cedar guides yo(:

ytd spent the whole day in rgs for ayc, met victoria after soo long! woah i seriously didnt recognise you until you called me haha. oh man, didnt imagine i would meet you! haha.

ayc was awesome. seriously. had lunch with kaushi and priya at orchard b4 that. being a facil to the trg facils and slos was super cool. adrain and i were talking tgth with uly during academic facilitation. oh man, we're seriously lacking in knowledge compared to the raffles ppl, when some are only sec2! gosh, adrain and i felt so inferior to them. when we were supposed to be facilitating, they totally did it all by themselves, and end up, i think they should be the ones facilitating me and adrain, HAHA. but uly was good haha. even during the time when the facils in trg were reading the article abt "can aseans think" me and adrain were just chatting abt everything haha.

icebreakers went well. glad everyone had fun (:

halfway thru cultural the projector started to broke down, but it was a good thing, cos then we could move out of the super cold room, and go next door classroom.

skils was really great(: me and kaushi helped up by screaming for all the obama speakers HAHA cos we're from cedar, so naturally uly needed our help on that HAHAH. guess everyone had loads of fun(: and facilitation went well, though we were running short of time haha, and we played the hand entangle game.

left rgs at 7pm. was a bit hungry, but the guys didnt even eat lunch cos yuan rong overslap HAHA, so couldnt complain haha. on the way out of the school we were walking along the track, then we wanted to talk [photo cos the atmosphere very nice. but if we want the whole com to be in the photo then we'll need a camera man, so we walked into the canteen so tt we could ask some ncc ppl who were having camp to help us. haha then i kinda triped over the curb went walking towards the canteen, so i instaneously grabbed onto kaushi whom i was walking beside. then omg. her ear piercing scream echoed thru the canteen. the rgs ncc ppl who were having their dinner were staring at us. OMG KAUSHI. waaa., then so embarassing, ye lin had to 'sorry sorry!" aft the whole drama i realised we were supposed to be asking them to help us tajke photo, so when i raised it to adrain he was like "erhh i dont think they'll want to help us take aft they heard the screams" haha omg,. all my fault for tripping over that thing., and partly kaushi's fault for thinking there was a frog somewhere that's why she screamed HAHA.

then on the way towards the main gate, was talking to adrain along the way. suddenly he kinda fell off the pavement we were walking on. omg scared me la. anyway the train ride home was great. ayc out the whole day revived me alot(:

ayc trg comm is love!(:

i need more revivals

Lord empower me futher

grr i need more drive to studyyyy

2009-05-12T19:08:00.002+08:00

oh man my blog's seriously getting more and more dead. trying to do on my english research now on technology debate. oh man. haha. thank God i found something for it anyway(:

tmr's voting day, and it officially marks the end of this road.

Thank God for this wonderful experience, one i will never forget. looking forward to tmr's guides session, tent pitching is super fun, esp the previous session we had with mdm faridah! yay orchid and sunflower rawks(:

The end of this wonderful journey

2009-05-08T21:16:00.007+08:00

today marks the end of this wonderful journey.

this journey would not have been wad it is without all ths struggles which has brought me to be such a stronger person. i've definitely grown alot closer with everyone around me with all the encouragement and support. we remember the pain, we remember the struggles, but wad will never leave our memories, and will be etched in them is the heros of this journey:)

Thank you niza (hey, i've got to stop myself from calling you siti cos of this campaign la(; haha) we've definitely grown so much more closer with one another, with all the difficulties we faced, i'm so glad we've supported and guided each other along thru everything. let's not think abt wad we could have done, but look to the future. i'm sure that whoever who gets it will do a good job, let's not worry(; thank you for working with me for track, thank you for the memories of the fun with the banners, cheering. thank you for everything, you rawk gal!(;

thank you joyyyyyyyy(: we were so close then, and this campaign has even brought us even more closer. dont worry abt wad is to come, but entrust it all to God yea! He has great plans for us(: thank you for trusting in me for being ur listening ear throughtout this process. thank you for that note you suddenly gave me b4 the start of mr tan's grooming lesson with us, i'm sure it indeed strengthened our bonds even more.

thank you varsha for cheerfully volunteering to be my campaign manager even before joy p announced the nominees. it is really a pleasure to work with you, all the calls, msning, smsing, i'm sure with have grown and become closer.(: thank you for putting up the posters for me around the school, thank you for the awesome ideas you've given for the campaign. thank you for the support and encouragement you have given me this morning when you saw me. thank you for suggesting "storm" when i was totally clueless abt any superhero

thank you pei yan for agreeing to work along side with varsha to be campaign manager too(: thank you for tt craZy and cool campaign speech where you spoke your heart out cos no one was looking and you did not need to care abt "stage fright" HAHA.(: thank you for constantly taking the initative to ask if i still need any help with the campaign process. and thank you for the wonderful ideas you've given(: tgth with varsha, we've certainly worked well with the campaign process, thank you for your funny ideas during our conference calls on the phone with varsha(:

thank you beaunice and soak teng! thank you for agreeing so easily to do the posters for me(: you guys seriously rawk! and for the lovely masterpieces around the school thank you!

thank you liyue, jemima, azri, lala! thank you for wanting to perform with me. thank you for being willing to sacrifice your recess and aft cca times to practise tgth(: i still rmb the day we stayed back till super late aft cca, till the time the aunty had to chased us out to lock the music studio doors.

thank you to jemima's two seniors for helping jemima with the drum beats and willing to do it for us(:

thank you ms chye for lending us your ampi and drum set, we really appreciate it(:

thank you CEDAR GUIDES esp sec3s, for your never ending support and encouragement you have given me rite for the start of this journey. thank you for being enthusiastic abt wanting to cheer for me during morning speeches and buzz at canteen and also assembly speech, you guys are seriously the source of my encouragement. thank you for being willing to make the twine cords for me despite your busy schedule, and also to paste the posters and stay back awhile to practise the cheers for the campaign, i really really appreciate it alot. thank you for your continuous reassurance (: thank you for the lung power and cheers(:

thank you 3I for the support, and the willingness to always want to help to hold the signs up during supposedly morning speeches, thank your for the encouragement

thank you kaushi for all the help you have given me throughout this whole journey, the encouragement, the support, the idea, the long phone calls, for that listening ear, for that accompany through it all(:

thank you phoebe for the help and support. hey my dear table partner, feel honoured ok!(: thank you for passing that twine cord to your sis. HAHA

thank you joyp, nasuha, and pc exco and rest of pcs, thank you for your never ending support and all the encouragement. thank you joyp for tt note of encouragement and hug. thank you nasuha, deryn, sarah and rezwana for your hugs and reassurance after being on stage for 5omin. oh man.(:

thank you jialun and charmaine for your encouragement postits(: it rly encouraged me on, to see the support you've given

thank you to joey, bernard, nic, darren, ryan, casper and howard, thank you for your never ending encouragement, and constantly asking me how the process is going, thank you for your concern in everything, although i noe you guys are going thru myes now, do jiayou yea! thank you for all the help you've offered, i totally appreciate it. i thank God for such awesome frens like you guys(:

and to the rest of my supporters, a really big thank you from the bottom of my heart. you guys will decide my future in cedar for me, and come wadever may, i promise i'll take it cheerfully. this journey has indeed made me grown so much, and realise how much there is to have confidence in myself, and without you believing in me, i would never have realised that.

there's so many more ppl i want to thank, so many more ppl i want to mention(;

hopefully will be able to cont part 2 of it soon, super tired now, had tent-pitching for guides just now, now my legs are aching! haha ok, time for an early sleep after soooooooo long of the opportunity to sleep this early!

this journey has ended, but i've never ever regretted abt stepping on it(;

Lord, thank you for the stepping stones you've created for me

thank you for giving me this opportunity, one i'll never take for granted

thank you for the struggles, and the storms you set in this journey,

thank you for being there for me, and being the anchor of my storms

thank you for the motivational ways in which you've boosted my confidence

thank you for my supporters, thank you for their continous encouragement and help

thank you for niza and joy, for without them in this journey tgth, it would have been a totally different experiene for me, and we wouldnt have grown so much closer.

in everything i've been thru and done, you have a reason for me

let me cont to see the light in You,

and let me be the guiding light for the rest of the ppl around me

let me be the source of insporation and motivation to them,

just like how You have been for me.

in everything, i honour You

2009-04-29T21:27:00.002+08:00

today was quite motivational for me esp aft guides. thank you guides, for the support, i rly appreciate it, all the encouragement and everything!

seriously hope tmr wun rain for nuts, let''s give off our best performance we can give! thank you liyue, azri, jemima and lala, for stayng back so late(:

left sch at 7.15, but seriously i think the time was worth while, i'm used to it ald, by leaving sch so late almost everyday.

CEDAR GUIDES IS LOVE!

In Christ alone my hope is found

He is my light,

my strength,

my song

This Cornerstone,

this solid ground

Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love,

what depths of peace

When fears are stilled,

when strivings cease

My Comforter,

my All in All

Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone,

who took on flesh

Fullness of God in helpless babe

This gift of love and righteousness

Scorned by the ones

He came to save

Till on that cross as Jesus died

The wrath of God was satisfied

For every sin on Him was laid

Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay

Light of the world by darkness slain

Then bursting forth in glorious Day

Up from the grave He rose again

And as He stands in victory

Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me

For I am His and He is mine

Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death

This is the power of Christ in me

From life's first cry

to final breath

Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell,

no scheme of man

Can ever pluck me from His hand

Till He returns or calls me home

Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

2009-04-23T22:14:00.003+08:00

haha. just came back from track nationals. GREAT JOB CEDAR! WE HAVE DONE OUR BEST(:

sorry that now my posts have to be really short, cos i really need to make time for them, with all the work load and everything else.

haha, today got to skip lessons to hang up the track banners. it was an experience(: but we didnt get to do the bilibanja this year cos we had to take the coach back to school to help with logistics(:

i'm sorry if i i disappoint you today, but we'll be really great frens i promise(:

I will bless the Lord forever

I will trust Him at all times

He has delivered me from all fear

He has set my feet upon a rock

I will not be moved

And I'll say of the Lord

You are my Shield,

my Strength

My Portion Deliverer

My Shelter,

Strong tower

My very present help in time of need

Whom have I in heaven but You

There's none I desire beside You

You have made me glad

And I'll say of the Lord

You are my Shield,

my Strength

My Portion Deliverer

My Shelter,

Strong tower

My very present help in time of need

Lord, thank you so much for going thru all this with me

so much so that i'm taking it on my stride and not stressing upon the things set for me

2009-04-12T22:44:00.003+08:00

I'm forgiven, because you were forsaken

I'm accepted you were condemed

And I'm alive and well your sprit is within me

Because you died and rose again

Amazing Love

how can it be

That you my king have died for me

Amazing Love I know its true

And its my joy to honor you In all I do,

I honor You

You are my king,

you are my king ,

Jesus you are my king

thank you Lord father

for your great love.

thank you for the mighty cross.

thank you for your nail pierced hands.

as you wash away our sins Lord,

help us to have the desire to be more and more like you

to be set apart for you Lord

wash me in you cleansing flow

in your glorious love and embrace

thank you for the struggles and difficulties set Lord,

i'm leaving it all all to you

help me to just really take things easy and at my stride

in all i do,

i honour You

2009-04-10T22:57:00.004+08:00

today alot of stuff happen, IT'S GOOD FRIDAY! haahah thank God it's a hol, if not i think i'll seriously die today. went home at 11pm ytd, cos had ayc training comm meeting at changi airport, so it's like, the whole they was really long. aft sch, had mr kang meeting, then aft tt had to go for guides sec4 farewell meeting, then aft that had pc communications workshop meeting, then helped up with sch banners for national track. oh man. seriously, i want to go for this yr's national track! argh, heard that sec3s going for the table tennis instead. sux. last yr went for track, and it was so fun! omg haha, still rmb, was "fighting" with hci for space, and the cedar spirit was really great!

omg haha

anyway ytd went quite well, and me and kaushi and priya cam-whored!hahaha was toking to kaushi on the phone just now abt stuff, esp ayc hahah, and she wants me to blog super long post abt her, must mention her name 10 times somemore hahahah, (:(: the first pic has the water background, so cool! haha, anyway thanks yann rong for helping us take the pic, esp the last one with priya! haha. && i got into skills and training camp yay(: cool(:

anyway kaushi! hahaha here is your long long post(: for you(: thank you kaushi for listening to me yak all the way not just during patrol corner but also all the other times like pc duty, haah, thank you for listening to my looonngg stories(: thank you for lifting up my mood when i feel down(: thank you for being my one of my best and closest mate in guides, orchid, and pc(: (oh man, i've said so much, only mentioned your name 4 times leh! dammit) hahahah, anwway kaushi(: jiayou for ayc, pc, guides and everything else tgth yea!

hehe i think i've said enough abt you kaushi! and i need 3 more kaushi (s). haha so kaushi, kaushi. kaushi. HAPPY! hahah(:

&& today was toking to charlotte cheong on hp, cheer up gal(: i noe you can pull thru for everything you can do, and i'm still damn shock abt wad you told me (: haha but still, lips are sealed! (: seriously i hope it's just 3. (:(:

spent today connecting with many ppl, thank you for all your smses and msn today, oh and ryan thank you for caring for me. i didnt noe we'll become such great frens helping each other along!(:&& haha, why do you suddenly ask abt that?(: (the tag)

smiles(:

Thank you for the cross, Lord

Thank you for the price You paid

Bearing all my sin and shame

In love You came

And gave amazing grace

Thank you for this love, Lord

Thank you for the nail pierced hands

Washed me in Your cleansing flow

Now all I know

Your forgiveness and embrace

Worthy is the Lamb

Seated on the throne

Crown You now with many crowns

You reign victorious

High and lifted up

Jesus Son of God

The Darling of Heaven crucified

Worthy is the Lamb

2009-04-08T22:39:00.005+08:00

today we had patrol challenge. i think the guides had fun(: yay. hehe cant wait for tmr's training meeting at changi airport, yay!

haha anyway. i finally got a letter from my class angel ytd.

today aft guides, went to meet joey at white sands, then went to get presents. hahaha, erh shopping queen meh! no la, && abigail said i no self control when comes to shopping, say i "no hope le" erh wad is this la hahahah(:

today cedar runway, varsha looked so funny! hahaha yay but we did it 3i(:

okok i shall reply my guides angel now, sorry this is so late! i really had no time ):

hehe anyway how did you find patrol challege today manito? (: really hope you had fun, esp my game hahhaha(: && oh oh, u gave me 10 letters ald(: haha yea you can alter your skirt as long as it's knee length(:haha hmm, the next time we must wear it? hmm should be if i'm not wrong, during sec4 farewell(: haha && it's ok. i'm short too(: we're in the same boat(: yay you pass your enrolment testt! i'm proud of you(: yup, cont to do well, and hopefully your love for guides will grow more yea! anyway, the blue long strip? you mean the one on your shoulders? haha it's for those with positions to sew white strips across it, so the white strips will mean their rank in guides(: you'll understand better soon! (: haha and how to take the world badge of the hook, it's almost like your sch badge rite? hmm, maybe if you cant wear it, your seniors will definitely help you, not to worry(: maybe you can just ask me, i'll help u(: haha yup. and thanks for the tape yea!(:

STRESS GANG HAS A BLOG! (:

&& thank you father,

for all ur special things you did today

i'm forever grateful(:

AYC!!

2009-04-05T18:24:00.002+08:00

yay(: ytd the thing that made me happy was AYC GM, it was the first but it was really great. got to make many new friends. it was really cool.

had com lunch aft tt which made us really get to noe each other better. really hope we bond well as a com, TRAINING RAWKS! yay(:

sorry this is a really short post, i mean i really enjoyed my day ytd but things are really bothering me now to blog properly abt the details.

but the only thing now to look forward to next week is ACY training dinner on thu(: yays!

2009-04-01T22:13:00.005+08:00

HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL DAY! (:

haha today when i went for morning duty 4h was like practically turning the class upside down! haha they switched all the tables and chairs facing the back of the class, oh man! haha and 2p and 1p switched places during morning assembly. sad today our class didnt get to do anything to the teachers cos first period was mt, and everyone was in different class. next few periods before top, the lessons were either not held in class or the teachers were too kiasu and came to class so early b4 we planned anything.

&& sam! must come to my church this sun! then aft tt we go shopping yo(:

yay yay

haha today there were like vj guys at our sch. they were trainign volleyball at the cc. super funny. at first when i saw them i was like. omg. they were seriously hot can, oh man, at least, for the split second that i saw them hahaha.

then when we were walking out from the sch, at the cc there, they were there again, and sam kept saying every one second i will turn my head to look. erh plssss la, i was looking at their volleyball game okaaaayyy hahahahahah(:(:

&& oh man, i dun even noe how i'm gonna pass my hsk. it's crazeh. today hsk was like. oh man. failing? and the time i got the qn correct aft so many wrong wants i just drew a big tick next to the ans and then sam was like "wa so big, cos happy that you finally get correct rite!" haha erh pls loh, it was accidental can! (:

haha during top siti got bored (: we started doodling on each other(: and then during hsk sam did it again, and she said i ego boost., wth (:

anyway, i owe this to my angel in guides(:
hey angel! yay thanks for all your letters there. hmm, actually you can get me anything you like seriously(: anything from you'll be special(: && how're you doing in guides and sec1? are you enjoying it? tell me more abt your new class and your time here in guides k?(: any problems faced?(:

oh oh and this inspired me further:
The only way to beat fear is to face it. Because we are always attracting the learning experiences we need, we often attract the experiences that we fear.Therefore, if you are scared witless of losing in a match, chances are you'll start to lose like mad. If you fear loneliness, you'll attract that. If you fear embarrassment you'll lose points like crap. It's life's way of encouraging us to grow.Losing hurts, but it huts even more when you realise that you haven;t done your best.

oops hcvb! hope you dun mind, but you blog's really encouraging(:

2009-03-30T17:36:00.006+08:00

the past few days for me have been really tiring, not saying that the amazing race ytd though, it was totally awesome! oh man, was in the same team as ben koh, jason, claudia and jonathan(: yay we rawk yo! our welfare team hahahah(: jason at first say no toilet break and lunch break, in the end we first stop at parkway parade ald go eat lunch at mos burger hahaha. omg he's so super hilarious!

on the bus there we were supposed to be finding more abt each other. then we "pakkat" say everyone's favourite song is heart of worship, everyone's fave genre is christian songs, then jason was like "of cos wad, we sing it every week how can we not like it" hahaha. omg then we started thinking of crazy ideas. then the guys were like "ok, from now on everyone's tooth paste brand is oral b". then grace was like"erh you all ah, better go home and start repenting" then the guys started to get a little more serious. jason was like "actually hor. i dun even have oral b at home la, i say oral b for wad ah, i use some pirated brand, the cogate brand also fate away ald" then ben was like "erh mine is the hotel take the small small bottle one la" HAHAHAH. oh man. then they were like "what tooth brush you use ah" then jason was like "haha, i use the tree branch" HAHAH, ben went "pls loh, i use fingers de" SUPER FUNNY hahaha, we were all crapping and the whole journey was super hilarious.

then there was this station at the singapore flyer called monster. and we had to step two feet onto each other's 2 feet. omg. then jason was like (cos i was standing beside him) "ok, you step onto me" then omg, i was trying so hard not to touch him and not to fall. it's like my rite feet was on top of his left and my left was on top of his right. oh man. then aft tt grace was like "actually charlotte you should have done it to joan instead." omg. then at another part of that game the guys had to put thier hands on the ground with someone else holding their legs. and the guys didnt want the gals to do it so we had to hold thier legs up/. then jason was like "who want hold my leg" and he was standing directly opp facing me/ omg. then i was trying to look away. dun catch his eye((: then no one answered, so he "okok, who wants to hold ben's legs then" then is like he needed 2 gals to hold up his legs. hahaha. oh man. and in the end i held on to nic's. hahahah.

the stations were super cool. went to marina barriage, and our last stop was vivo. we were supposed to take a pic in the end we forgot. haha. and our prize for the race was ben and jerry's ics cream voucher(: woots! oh man so cool(:

&& HAPPY BADE CALLA AND CLAUDIA!! yay!

and then. samuel gave my sis and i a lift back home together with claudia, krystal and amos.super hilarious. omg it's like b4 we entered the car, krystal was laughing because he banged onto smth awhile ago. and its like the car had glass broken all over, and he had to tape up the glass hahahaha. then it's like he was using his GPS to get from vivo to tampines cos they had to drop claudia and krystal first. so amos was helping him with it. and we suddenly got lost, cos when we came out from the tunnel the GPS suddenly lost signal./ but it was cool. cos it could dectect stuff like the erp. so anyway we anyhow drive ard till it picked up the signal./ super funny! aft saying bye to claudia and krystal he was like "oh no. now how to get to pasir ris" so amos went to try again to work the GPS. this time it HANGED. omg. super funny. then samuel had no choice. drove his car around, then stopped his car at some bus stop and offed the engine, then restarted it again. this time the GPS worked. yay(: SUPPER FUNNY OH MAN/ made me and my sis laugh like hell can.

after he dropped me and my sis home i went home and chionged all the stuff that needs to me done. was trying to relax at the same time. was toking to siti and casper. haha, and had to help casper edit his proposals(: (every king needs a queen. HAHAH I SAW THAT ON YOUR PM!)haha but casper, your eng seriously improved in these two proposals.(:not like ur singlish and informality in the other one, and omg. i am so so so sorryfor not delting ur work off! sorry you accidentally sent it off with your work at the bootom, i should have told you!(:

thank you casper, i noe you care for me(: thanks for helping me take my mind off things, i really appreciate it(:

at nite, suddenly joshua smsed me to ask how the amazing race went. oh man. you're sooo cute! (even samantha agrees with me hahahah) i'm gonna miss you ya(: thank you for at least telling me, at least it symbolised how close we are, it's going to be less entertaining with you around but we must still keep in contact k! haha., oh man,. and the pics you saw abt the race, i want to see too! i'm gonna miss you ya, cos you give me more reason to, then someone else.(:

for the past few days it's been really stress, it's so difficult. but i noe i can pull thru.thanks lucas for that encouragement today (: "hey you always say how you gonna pull tru, and in the end you do(: you're a capable lady(:have confidence in you" and thank you sam for overcoming all odds with me together today, rushing home like mad just to complete geog assigment, thank you liyue and joey and gillian for always being my listening ear, and giving the best advice ever, thank you joy and kaushi for everything i need you for for me to pull thru all that is. && i noe i havent said tis before, but thank you howard, even though there may be impatient times of me but still, i noe you never lost patience and your constant msgs always remind me that there's someone here who still cares abt me when all hope has gone(:

and thank you Father, for your awesome day you set aside for me. Guide me thru all that i do, and help me to love you more and more each second. help me be set apart for you Lord, ready to do your will(:

2009-03-28T23:48:00.002+08:00

yay actually was starting to lapse into IT again, oh man i cant stand myself. that's why i need joey, gillian, kaushi, sam and joy plus liyue here, if not i think i'll just die. plus today gillian having some npcc full day thing i cant sms him at all, and i dun want to do it too much so that's why i was starting to laspe.

and then kaushi suddenly smsed me. rite timing. so i started to tok to her abt it. (KAUSHI BETTER BE PLEASE I MENTIONED YOU, you have been asking me to blog abt you from God noes when hahaha) yup, but seriously, thanks for the advice, there are better ___ ard here hahah.

like now casper's accompanying me online since 8.30. oh man, it's 12.15 ald. he's so hilarious! haha king and queen(: (inside joke) but yea, really thank you so much, although you dun noe wad's happening here, but you really make me cheer up more and take my mind off stuff. seriously you rawk my k____! hahahah i shant say it outloud here or it'll cause a commotion, but it's quite obvious ald anyway. March on soldiers, for YOUR KING (and queen^ ^) hahahaha (saw that on your pm casper!) thank you for your jokes and accompany tonight!

tmr there's amazing race for church youths till 6, gonna enjoy!

2009-03-26T22:39:00.002+08:00

today had chinese oral, and the teacher stopped me even when i havent said my last point yet. but still, i think i did better than last year. this year's one is definitely easeir.

&&

ytd i almost dieded.

plus just now. kinda emo-ed with joy
hey joy! dun worry alright! we'll pull thru tgth i'm sure(:

Lord i'm letting go
so that you can take the wheel(:

2009-03-22T17:34:00.005+08:00

"You know you have to move on right, or the world will pull you along. Remember them, remember what happened, keep the good memories and move on because their presence, what happens is tangible. No matter when these kind of things happen you will have to move on in the end. Takes time, but it'll hurt even more if you cling on; it's like the same concept of keeping wounds open. Moving on doesn't mean forgetting, it means keeping them close to your heart, remembering with a SMILE and not tears, and knowing that even when you lose everything else, you'll have the memories with you."

i got this from tian qi's blog.

sorry tian qi, i really hope you dun mind. but these really strike an impact on me, on what i am currently going thru now.

i'll keep smiling no matter how much i have to endure(:

&& joey jiayou k! we're in it tgth(: no matter how tough it things may seem i'm here ya!

Lord you say "my peace i give to you". let peace rule our hearts. let us realise that you are BIGGER than all our problems, THE LORD IS LARGER THAN LIFE(:

&& yay angel(: i'm not sure if your read my 2nd message for you somewhere in the posts below, but thank you for your letters(: dun get too discourage with your results or anything yea, they'll improve in time(; jiayou! has your angel wrote to you yet? (:

2009-03-21T22:13:00.004+08:00

i didnt forget this (:

THANK YOU LIYUE
for all the help you've given me today
and when you noe i was dying here in this mess
you still had the patience to help me
thank you for helping me with bio and chem
if not i think i would have gone nuts

plus my emotions.
even though it was much better before i talked to you
but at least you cared(:

thank you liyue,
for all the things you did for me,
i thank God for a close fren like you.,
i'm never letting go(:

taggies(:
charlotte! hahaha yes yes charlottes cant live without each other omg hahahah leadership course made me hyped up when toking to u hahahah so hilarious
Kaushi! hahaha forgot to pass you on fri, haha when you pass me my bdae present on mon (which is looonng due hahaha) then i'll pass it to you(:
Pei xuan! haha erh we said we will post everything loh! haha mine is ok on my hips. but abit lose though hehehe (: i just tried it today omg(:
Joey! haha omg yessss i almost dieded when i saw it omg hahahah

2009-03-21T21:21:00.003+08:00

all these while, my emotions for you were like a roller coaster ride
but did you even noticed?

i'm getting out of all this shit,
out of the dungeon
and i'm walking into the light.
thank you Lord so much for wad you brought me to ytd.

without gillian and vincent ytd, i think i wuld just have gone nuts.
i would have gone seriously crazy like wad i have been telling you guys the whole nite abt
but thank you so so much for being there for me,
with all the concern you seriously made me feel much much better. and not out of my mind

thank you gillian for having been always there for me
and when i couldnt take the pain anymore
you were there ytd to make me feel better in my times of desperation
and thank you for showing me wad a good guy should be,
instead of that jerk.
thank you for listening to me, you are like the best listener i ever known, and i'm serious.
thank you simply, for letting me sleep peacefully ytd nite,
if i dint tok to you ytd, i think i would have been tossing and turning in bed
or crying myself to sleep.
thank you for reassuring me that i can msg u anytime i need you or someone to tok to if this kind of stuff ever happens again.
thank you for your patience.
thank you so, so much.

thank you vincent,
for your retardedness and lameness ytd,
omg seriously. but at least i noe you did try to help,
and listen
in some way (:
&& thank you for that simple reminder to go to God.
thank you for jerking my thoughts to bring me back to the rite path
when all these while i realise i didnt depend on Him anymore.
thank you for that awakening

thank you joey and liyue and joy,
for showing your concern for me too,
the first ppl i thought of talking to were you all,
& when i gave you guys the calls, and you all didnt pick up
you all still smsed and called me back the next day out of concern.
even though you all noe that i always call you guys for no reason just to tok crap
but still,
i guess you all could sense that smth was wrong

and you.
i'm getting used to the fact ald tt you totally cheated my feelings rite from the start of it all
stop taking advantage of it
cos i'm sick and tired
i'm getting over everything i used to be dying upon
cos now
i have confidence of the ppl i can rely upon

Lord, lead me thru all these.
i have faith that everything will go smoothly
cos i'm picking up my pieces slowly
piecing back the fragments

2009-03-19T22:00:00.015+08:00

omg heehe just came back from melacca ytd nite. MELACCA TRIP TOTALLY RAWKs! esp the 2nd day oh man. and i think LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE SERIOUSLY DID A GREAT JOB AS A PATROL TGTH(: && charmaine and i totally rawked for mcs at campfire, comsidering it was super last min thing, but we did it gal! here are some pics, tgth with side stories of the trip, cant say all or it would be way too long(:

AUNTY AGNES IS SO CUTE!

mcs at campfire! woots for charmaine and charlotte! although it was a super improto and we kinda screwed it think we did not bad(: welldone char(:

coy 2 performance at campfire, THE THREE BABAS!

me, pei xuan and cons on the bus. cons love to do that omg(:

mdm faridah giving a speech when the melaccan guides arrived

at nite. CAMWHORE!

that super cute gal down there is one of the other schools's guider's daughter. (bowling)

we were having a bowling competition, inter-sch hehe(; oh man. and mdm faridah is super super pro. and then ms chin ah, she say she cannot bowl (is it how you spell) at all, in the end become one mark less than mdm faridah only omg.

the bowling pins fell out of that area omg so funny hahaha

MDM FARIDAH IS SUPER SUPER PRO IN BOWLING I AM SERIOUS! didnt managed to get a nice shot of her, that one must get from beaunice, her photography skills are DAMN PRO.

zhi hui is so cute here! omg

random pics we took in the room. tell you the hotel is super run down omg. and u have to manually lock the room door. omg and we didnt noe the first time we left the room for our activities we didnt lock the door, thankfully no one broke in

buddies at the back of the bus!

for shopping pei xuan said that i spent the most. but omg, shopping only for 1 hr! oh man.after all the interaction with the queesway, bedok town and siglap guides plus the melaccan guides, they are seriously very nice, sad i didnt get their contacts, except those i my patrol. hee anyway little miss sunshine, zoelyn was asking if we can meet up (: see our enthusiasm for little miss sunshine! (:

hee ok i have still got ALOT more havent post, will post soon though.

softly at the close of day

as the campfire fades away

silently each guide should ask

have i done my daily task,

have i kept my honour rite,

shall i guit a sleep tonite

have i done and have i that

everything to be prepared.

2009-03-15T17:04:00.006+08:00

hee i'm actually not supposed to be using the com now, supposed to be doing tuition hmwk and hol hmwk, but oh man, come on, it's hols man! ltr still got tuition, sighh

JUST ABT 12 MORE HRS TO MELACCA TRIP!!! yay yay. there's going to be SHOPPING. and campfire! oh man. so exciting(: YAY CHARMAINE WE'RE GOING TO ROCK THE HOUSE WITH OUR ENTHUSIASM ON CAMPFIRE NITE YO! go go we can do it(: && if i'm not enthu you can slap me until i become enthu(: it was quite shocking for me when mdm faridah called me,but yea, i feel honoured yo(: hee for those who dunno wad's this abt, you'll noe on campfire nite on tues in melacca(: YAY YAY. charlotte and charmaine rocks! we're gonna scream and shout in our rooms, so exciting!

hee today my mum's still in a bad mood, when i asked her for my hp back with the excuse of 'i need my hp back, need to sms my senior urgently' then she was like 'ok, ltr return back to me' then in the end i didnt even pass it back to her, went to charge the batt. then today morning bad mood as usual again, asked for the hp again but i didnt give it to her, said that i had to contact joan to noe where she was so that we can sit together in church for combine service.

so in the end in church i sat with lucas on my right and joan on my left. apparently she kena forced to go for combine service hee. but i went on my own accord. partly cos i promised lucas i will sit beside him, lucas better feel honoured(: but although i half the time didnt understand wad the speaker was saying (cos they were using chinese and hokien and you noe how sucky my chinese is,) it's worth it(: sitting beside lucas and joan is so interesting hee. halfway during the sermon i was so sian cos half the time i didnt understand them, and i couldnt be bothered to get a headset with the eng translation in it, so me and lucas started toking by typing in our hps. apparently his dad was sitting behind us and he said he bet after the service he bet his dad sure ask him alot of questions. oh man. hee, but thank you for sitting beside me(: good thing you never go sit with your cell, if not me and joan will be suffering behind. hee(: && sorry i dun think i can go out with you, my hol's too pack le, and my mum's in a super freaking bad mood these days. i think if i come home from melacca with all my shopping things, her mood will be worse. but i'll promise to go out with you another time(:

& then after combine service the church catered lunch for everyone so i sat with joan, grace, kelvin and joy to eat. oh man. kelvin is super hilarious! grace wanted to take pic randomly then suddenly kelvin came beside me and ask her snap a photo hahaha, then after that the whole group of us took a pic, with kelvin in the middle cos he wanted to be at the center of attention of gals.

omg hahahah

ok i gtg and get going with hmwk(:

and hopefully i dun die during tuition ltr, with all the crazy stuff i need to memorise

thank God for this awesome day

2009-03-14T21:45:00.005+08:00

hp got confiscated for no apparent reason
my mum just decided to take it away from me
without even a reason becos she's pmsing
the whole day she vented all her frustration on me.
i'm so going to get it back from her after i'm done with my piano ):

and the labtop's mouse is stuck.
spoiled.
oh nooooooooo.
now i got to face with my extra mouse.

charlotte.
must learn to adapt to changes
it takes time, but
stay cool, stay strong gal!

OAC TOTALLY(:

2009-03-13T23:41:00.003+08:00

yay just came back from oac.

TO ALL INSTRUCTORS AND LEADERS(:

a good job well done to you guys,

i noe you guys spent alot of time and effort in planning this camp for us sec3s and everyone definitely appreciates the hardwork put in (; i guess everyone will agree with me that you guys rawk and have look up to you as true leaders.

thousands of scoldings, we noe that you guys just want to noe wad went wrong. we noe abt it rite from the start. it takes time to enact change. if only we give ourselves a chance. if we only give ourselves wadever we have and pushed ourselves further. if only we cared.

3i we can do better than give, i believe(: i have faith(:

anyway, oac was not bad.

although (as quoted) 'the fans were useless' (they couldnt even be on-ed)(sweating like mad at nite)

'the teachers were tempting us with their laptops and macs breakfast and as if they came for hol'

although 'the beds were as hard as rock'

'and the dorms were rite at the end (run like mad to the toilets)"

'no drinks at all for meals'

but i think overall it was worth it. camps seriously make me feel that i am blessed and tht i should treasure wad i have. it is a simple reminder each time i go for camps that i should be happy with everything i am provided with. Thank God for everything(:

i caught the izzah virus this mornign hahaha. cos i think i never go toilet enuf. oh man. but thankfully i was ok once i reached home. izzah i hope you were better at campfire nite, i was concerned(: hehe

&& oh man i was sleeping at the top of the bunk above mabel and the bed had no railings at all! then i had to sleep so super straight so tt i wun fall off. super scary!

once i reached home i slept lyk for 5 hrs. not i'm wide awake,. and there's piano tmr. oh noooooooooo!

&& yes yes, i seriously need to manage my time even better, i mean like, now it's not good enuf, with all the upcoming extra commitments and activites, i seriously need to piroritise even more.

sorry if i didnt do enuf for the class. i can feel it myself. i need to stretch myself even more. i want to do much much more than that. i'm slowly dwinding in it, i noe it myself and i need help

Lord i need you as i go on

with all the extra and added resposibilities,

help me cope with them

and help me stretch myself further

to wad i can become

you have a reason for me for everything you put me thru

help me to live up to all the expectations

and not disappoint myself.

i want to do more for everyone around me

with every step i take, save my soul Lord,

make me new, so that i can simply live for you

on a lighter note, MELACCA TRIP ON MON!!

yay! yes yes(: room buddies, cheers to constance, pei xuan and charmaine!

PEI XUAN! shopping shopping shopping! im seriously going to spend everything. reminds me, my mum hasnt changed money yet. haha

&& little miss sunshine,

let's shine and show the rest that we're made of steel yo!

although we only noe each other just recently i'm sure we can shine

i'm quite sure we can do this

i have faith in our patrol.

let's make the trip worth while and meaningful! (:

2009-03-09T20:59:00.006+08:00

omg haha today finally is like relax day, come home 7 plus, slack all the way till now.

oh man today my results for the rest of the cts turned out to be quite alright,. yay! a1 for all, except eng, but i still passed eng though hehe(: thank you God for showing me not to be disheartened when the results which were bad came out first, i'll still have trust in you no matter wad(:

today after my appraisal, went to popular with siti. hehe didnt stay there long though, bought 3i's oac notebooks and pens and masking tape(: haha.

omg and when i was on my way back from pasir ris interchange the bus was super super pack, and guess who i met. josephine! wooh, dindt expect to see you sia. then when we got down the bus she we spent a couple of minutes catching up with each other, oh man. she was so so funny. first thing after toking for awhile she was like "long time never see you, your uniform the sleeve is like that fold one meh" then i "erh wth you first time see me where this uniform ah"hahaha, she ahh. super crappy haha,. then after that she say "erh you turn around, i want see your bag" then i "wth, you never see me carry this bag b4 meh, (its omg, HOT PINK!) " hahah ok that was anti climax, then she started spinning me around, then unzipped all the parts of my bag, open my wallet,. oh man. josephine you ahh.. hahahah. and then we exchanged email and blog, cos i was laughing my head off with her and her crappy stuff and i told her i will blog abt her so she say she want go see if i really blog anot. so yea, haha., then i kept pressing the wrong buttons with her hp hahahah.

yea, anyway today my angel's letter brightened up my day again! yay(: it was nice to hear from you, i truly appreciate it, all the sweet stuff that you do ya(: although i noe that every morning i may seem abit dao during duty but whereever you are manito, i noe you're somewhere among all the sec1s(: (heh i'm a very very nice person inside ya. hehe) woah yes you found out my fave colour! haha (: i dunno who you are yet dun worry, cos i dun rly noe the sec1 guides well enuf yet(; i like suprises so no worries, i wun go try finding out who you are(: and haha yup, my common tests are over, WOOTS! and we cant really reply our angel so i'll reply your stuff thru here k?(: anway your stuff really brighten my day so i'll blog abt it anyway(: jiayou manito! (reminds me, i must be a nice manito too (: )

&& you.
i have put you as my past and i'm moving on
i dun like it when you try and take advantage of it
and totally mess up my life
stop giving me false hopes cos i have enuf of it ald
i mean, yes i do get dissapointed when you stop everything that you once did for me
but still,
i will and can divert my attention away from you, if i try hard enough
it just takes time
so stop. taking. advantage. of. it.
cos i noe wad you are doing behind my back

that nite i couldnt sleep becos i was all over in love with you again
but the next i couldnt sleep becous of the frustration in the lingering agony.
stop treating me like her, cos at the end of it all,
you still do things to her i pretend not to noe
stop toying with my feelings
i am not going to be foolishly stuck here each time i see the ugly truth
i am puting you as my past, and entirely erasing you from my mind.
i am ready to move on(:

hehe ok taggies!
joey! oh man haha ok yay you btr not leave me here if not i think i will spend the rest of my days crying my lungs out and in the end hurting more than wad i get after toking to you ytd hahah
heather! yes omg OAC OAC OAC. havent even started packing yet
jue ying! yay haha thanks for your encouragement, i noe you'll do well too, jiayou!
hi varsha hi constance hi charlotte c!
oh man constance yes lets camwhore the whole nite ok! and go shopping yes yes yes!
find out who i am haha oh man yes thank you(:
taffy! OMG YOU AH HAHAHAHA you and your com addiction ahahah, no la, got me at oac we'll stick tgth how can you not survive! yes we will survive labrador tgth!
yay angel from 3i! hehe actually i think i noe who you are, but still, i'm pretending not to noe dear(;
nic chan! omg hey, you totally scared me, cos i tot i didnt even noe who this person was until you came online and i saw your name omg hahaha you ahh(:
leng jen! hahaha you are like one of the only ppl i noe who is looking forward to it, but dun worry we will stick tgth with taffy and make her addicted to us during camp and not her com hahaha
PEI XUAN! haha happy, i wrote your name big big(; hahaha yes SHOPPING SHOPPING SHOPPING!
mabel(: yay haha jiayou for oac anyway(: you're sticking with me too heheheh
woan chin! hey i am so not emo k(: hahha but anyway thx for always adding colour to my day when i see you and your retarded smile hahhahah(:

2009-03-05T21:51:00.002+08:00

YES FINALLY TESTS ARE OVER
omg but my results arnt good, damn sad la.

haha anyway another thing that cheered me up quite abit today is the letter from my angel in guides(: yay (smiles) haha hey you may not be reading this but i appreciate the effort put in, but your letters seemed to brightened up my stressful day yea! thanks for the bookmarks, clip and all(:

my common test results have shown that i'm not coping well in sec3 so far and it's not good ): sad la. i must work harder arghhh/. it's like a horrible dip from where i used to be in sec2./ sux.

the past few days have been so stressful it's like as if they were so dark and gloomy oh man,. like when i cried sms after sms ytd while smsing joey. oh man. ):

it's alot better now though yay! tmr's orchid cip practise on mdm tan's car. yay orchid must wash sparkling clean so that we can show that orchidians are made of steel yay yay! i noe we can do it yo(:

oac's coming next week, and today while trying to chiong geog revision for the first part of the morning i was having cramps. then dunno if is menstual cramps or cos stress. oh man. in the end during recess when toilet. then YESSSSSSSSSSS. great(: i dun have to worry for oac. yay! haha then when i told everyone including abi, kaushi and joy after that they were like hugging me cos they want to get it too before oac so funny! and guess wad. abi got it too after that when she got home. hahahaha. and heather so funny say she will stick to me the whole day hahaha.

CANT WAIT FOR MELACCA TRIP!!! haha yay shopping shopping shopping, yays to pei xuan(: *grins*

okok i better get going with letters for manito, and joey's calling me soon, and. I. am. so. not. sleeping. late. today. (:

2009-03-01T22:12:00.004+08:00

yay, for once, i'm prepared for bio, THANK GOd. of all the test i've had so far, i'm only prepared for bio, as in, i feel prepared. all the other tests, the nite b4 i totally freaked out

&&the reason why i feel good abt tmr's bio is because of your support you gave me today, and the sight of you totally melted my heart, i was satisfied.

BUT

after i read it,. i'm confused and i dunno wad to feel. the flame blazing inside is dimishing, and it's disappointing

pls, dun make it feel that way

good thing i've joy to talk abt it immediately to, thank you joy for bringing me back to the right path, help me not to fall for it again, if not, i would be even more confused and dunno wad to feel. its nice that we always have the same old common topic to tok abt and we never get tired abt it(:

Lord, show me the way
i'm confused
with his supposed love.

thank you for the blessing and the focus for today's study for bio
but thru it all,
was it just mend to end like that?
was it just mend for me to realise wad's true?

i'm confused Lord and i dun want to feel this way,
bting me to the end of the tunnel soon..

but thank you so much again,
for that everlasting love you gave, cos i noe it never fails
and for eternity, will never.

2009-02-25T18:52:00.004+08:00

today we had math and ss test. sux. and i screw it up, oh man. and now i'm supposed to be studying for chem, but since the com is on i shall just squeeze in a post. just came back from guides.

anyway cedar guides had 2 golds, WOOTS!

talking to you last nite till so late made me more revived. after so long we finally had a serious talk again. i mean, wad's calling a best fren one when you dont treat her that way. when all your attn was on her., &&, im loving and accepting you for who you are, no matter wad

things may be screwed,

but Lord i still need you to go on

no matter how tiring and difficult things may be

give me the courage and strength to move on.

give me the revival

i lay them all down at your feet

surrending it all

at the foot of the cross

2009-02-23T22:39:00.004+08:00

sorry kaushi got cut off! the better one is above

ok this is gonna be a short post cos i'm seriously running out of time. oh no. common tests are soooo soon! dead. its crazy seriously,. havent studied much, oh nooooooo

haha anyway last week was quite eventful for me, had thinking day, and the weekdays were quite exciting and eventful. yup.

just studied ss and i'm not totally sure of everything, oh man, and i failed my chinese ta. oh man.

Im supposed to take down the previous post's convos with le xin, yup i'm gonna do it now(:

&& i'm really sorry if i hurt your feelings in anyway

i mean, this wont be the right time for it

and this whole process takes time

we're be great frens i promise(:

Lord i need you

in everything i do

be the lighthouse

guiding and leading my path

and in everything,

help me to have the faith, confidence and strength in me Lord

and that if all else fails,

i noe that

your love never fails.

thank you for guiding me thru the storm

but bring me back out of it all

help me pass the rain

so that i may emerged safely

thru it all

your strength is everything i need

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY!!

2009-02-14T22:45:00.014+08:00

yayyyyyyyyyyy today we had cedar fiesta. yup, and everythign went great, didnt expect tt vincent will last min come, and didnt expect to see joseph, oh man, and my hp was screwed, again. as usual. hang and hang. oh man. haha, and so sad i dindt buy the necklace from 3h stall ):):. haha OMG AND MR LENG GOT DUNK 5TIMES omg omg omg. damn funny.he got dunk, and had to come back up again, and got dunk again,. omg omg haha. yay me and the class cam whored after the whole thing, i'll get them from cen yun soon, but here are just some(:

me and leng jen hehe

yay, me, leng jen and taffy. taffy did face painting! haha

haha anyway me and joy took these before entering the haunted hse. it was damn scary omg! haha, was screaming was hell there, oh man! haha, and the best thing is that the band room is haunted by itself oh man. haha

yup. here is the bright and the dark one(: yay.

ohoh, and thank you jaesy,i can feel you are commited(:

thank you everyone for making the stall go well(:

yay yay

oh and i really hope you get well soon

i mean, you worked alot into it

i'm praying for you

you'll be ok

i was so relieve to hear that it'll be alright though

oh oh, and le xin's teasing me abt joseph hahaa

oh mann

hahahah so weirddddd liyue says she feel depress when you dun study oh man. haha so unlike me i'm supposed to be doing tuition hmwk, end up oned the com and blog oh man

hahah

taggies: joan you dun look horrible lahh

2009-02-14T22:06:00.008+08:00

ok sorry i didnt blog abt ytd, cos i came home like at 10.30. haha yea, very late sia. yup, many stuff happened ytd. cedar fiesta prep was fine, though we spent loads of time doing the rocks again but i guess it all paid off. had to leave like 5.10 so taht could go lexin's church, oh man, seriously rawks! ok here are the pics for fiesta prep before i go on abt her church(:

yayyyyy we stayed back to help deco the stall and all, good job ppl! but i noe sam and some others stayed back even ltr though haha

sam and mathidia here(:

sam with our class rocksssssssss hahahah our stall is nice yo(:

haha ok anyway so after tt me and le xin went for dinner to meet her buzz grp. oh man. they are so nice! and made me feel so welcomed! i didnt have to feel awkward at all haha. yup. and joseph is nice. evet is nice too(: yay(: ok i added abt evet so as to not imply anything k. i din say i like joseph haha.

so anyway we had dinner. then after that omg heather called me like super super many times cos she and jia lun and alicia were desperately waiting for us at hans oh man. so sorry! but u guys could have seriously gone in first, but in the end alicia sat alone with her buzz., and heather and jia lun sat with me and lexin with her buzz haha. the whole place had many cedarians! haha, and lexin's happy to noe that alicia's from her church too hahah and when we were playing pass the parcel we were so super scared abt holding on to it when the music stops hahahah, oh man. but the whole thing was super cool. esp when we started sticking the vday note on each other's backs hahaha.had fun rite from the start, so it was a good thing we sat together though haha, the show was great too(: super funny oh man, and i seriously thought kenneth(is it correct? cant rmb the name) would have won at the start, haha, but if not for the super flirt background part i would have picked james though haha.

&& yes i cried when gwen was toking. oh man. i couldnt help it, my eyes were stinging, and when it stings, it hurts, it's like it happens all the time when i cant control my tears, they just keep flowing omg. and after that when i told gwen she said that is because i felt so touch for the love of God, yea i dun deny that, thank you for the powerful tok, it revived me. the whole thing was seriously awesome. && when i was crying, i mean, i didnt make any sound but then after tt i was sniffing then jia lun thought that it was heather (who was sitting in the middle of me and jia lun) who was crying so she started consoling her, omg, they only told me when i asked them if they knew i cried, cos i seriously thought they didnt noe la! haha,s o funny! thank God for the life trasformation for jia lun, Lord you are our rock(: hallelujah! the whole thing was great. and i met huirou after so long haha. Lord help me make a decision, help me make the right choice, help my parents to accept wadever decision i choose, help me show them that i'm happy with it. i need you. ok we took some pics too hehe

haha this is DAMN COOL. cos heather and jia lun were like holding balloons, so it made that effect! haha

in the lift heheh

thank you lexin for this wonderful opportunity, hopefully i can convince them. with God, i can do all things thru christ who gives me strength! haha yup, thank you lexin for your support and prayers, its good to noe(: ok, lexin's refreshing the page to see if this post's up anot, so i gotta post this now(:

2009-02-14T21:30:00.002+08:00

Your Valentine's Day Personality is Romantic

You love Valentine's Day. You see it as a magical time when anything is possible.

You like to pull out all the stops stops. You want this day to be over the top romantic.

On Valentine's Day, you're all about splurging and getting spoiled. You have very high expectations.

Sure it may be a bit cheesy, but who cares? You think a holiday all about love is a dream.

What's Your Valentine's Day Personality?

You Are Ready, Willing, and Able to Commit

You are not scared of commitment in the least.

In fact, there's a good chance that you're already committed to someone you love.

You are willing to give up a little freedom for relationship stability.

And once you're in a relationship, you'll do almost anything to make things work.

Are You Afraid of Commitment?

You Are Casual

Your positive traits:

You've got a ton of friends, so you have no problem meeting new people.

You're great at thinking up new things and activities to do with your sweetie.

You tend to let the little things slide in relationships... and focus on the bigger picture.

Your negative traits:

In relationships, it tends to be your way or the highway.

You can never open up completely to someone - you have to keep parts of yourself secret.

You're cold and reserved, which leaves your partner feeling unloved.

Your ideal partner:

Flexible, because you're not going to be the one to compromise!

Is smart and quirky with lots of weird interests... including you.

A true individualist who doesn't care what anyone thinks

Your dating style:

Stimulating. You prefer dates that explore a shared interest - like a lecture, museum tour, or concert.

Your seduction style:

Wacky. Your wild ideas have your lover wondering what's next.

Insatiable - it takes a lot to satisfy your desires.

Varied. You're eager to try things as soon as you learn about them.

Tips for the future:

Bring a little responsibility to your relationship - like showing up for dates!

Compromise a little. It would kill you to do things your lover's way for once.

Be aware of your partner's jealousy. Even though you aren't jealous, realize your partner is sometimes.

Best color to attract mate: Sky blue

Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

2009-02-12T21:23:00.005+08:00

haha i just finished baking brownies. its in the oven baking now. just now when the timer rang i went to check the brownies, then i realised that it didnt rise. then i freaked. only to realised tht i under set the tempterature. omg. haha so hopefully it turns out ok aft i have raised to the correct temp. haha

oh man. today media corp came to our sch and filmed dunno wad during jogging. everyone was super high and cheered really loud. super cool la. and today we jogged the wet weather plan only one round some more. good thing. haha. then in the field, mr chan (young chan) was like "3i smile! media corp is just there filming you!"

then caireen went "huh is media corp meh?"

edna :"of cos media corp la, you tot hollywood ah" omg hahahah, i behind them laughing like crazy.

yea. and during geog varsha left the class for AVT without the key. never lock the class. me and sam screamed for her but she out le, so never hear. then sam decided to just lock the door since we realised that the lock was unlock there. in the end, turns out, we got locked out of the class cos varsha left the key in the classroom. omg, haha, super funny. had to get the guy to open for us.

oh yes, on sat we had cny gathering with church ppl, me, joan and chloe were camwhoring haha

chloe's an angel! haha

i think this pic's damn cool. me and joan are on the swing, and chloe's face is at the side on the rite! hahaha. she was trying to squeeze her head in. oh man and its so dark.

taggies!

mabel, must click the star next to the names hehe

2009-02-11T22:23:00.006+08:00

haha omg i just had a convo with my fren, he's so super funny! and he wants to be annoymous so that's why i'm replacing his msn name with (name)
we were talking abt brownies that i gave him for bdae. hahah cos the person whom i passed to to pass to him was like "be careful, might be stale" so then:

12/02/2009
21:56:26
(name)
but i broke the first piece to let a few ppl try 1st

(name)
to make sure they are not stale hehe

(name)
than i koop the rest
(name)
and one thing ah

(name)
you know the way you put it in the plastic bag... \

(name)
my friend was like "eh why you carrying yi tiao of sai ah"

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
HAHAHAH OMG I NOE

(name)
lol!

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
I COULDNT FIND ANY OTHER CONTAINER
I WAS SEARCHHING FOR IT
THEN THAT TIME 11 PM LE
so i heck care
sorrry!!
omg omg
but nice
nice can le(:
dun wait you diahorrea

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
but not stale rite

(name)
tastes nice
lol

(name)
than this guy ah
so loser la
he was like
"do you like this girl"
than i was like "uhh why?"
than he say
"if you like this girl ah, must say
i can taste your love from this brownie
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
hes like super mega despo la

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
omg omg

(name)
he was like

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
your frens are retarded

(name)
"is she single?"
"is she short" (hes short)

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
HAHAHAH

(name)
"can i have her number?"
thats what being in a monk school does to you

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
HAHA
wads monk sch

(name)
monk
the shaolin monk
you know.. monk, nun

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
hahaha
aiyoo

(name)
you in nun school
lol

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
HAHAHAH
OMG./

(name)
lol
anyway
that day
your sch ppl come our school ask us to buy smth
i oso dunnoe what
i jus know they keep chanting " 10$ only la, buy la"

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
HAHAHAH
CHANTING!?
OMG
HAHAHAHAH

(name)
i dun even know what they selling
than want me to buy -_-
lololol
than they like flirt flirt like thaty

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
HAHAHAHAH

(name)
want to eat my frens money

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YOU LIKE RITE
HAHAHAH

(name)
lol
i go du lan them
not only me la

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
hahaha

(name)
my class
we all mega du lan them

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
yea, is for my sch fun fare on sat

(name)
i got one fren

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want come?
uh huh

(name)
"i can only donate cum le, how ah?"
"you wan virginity oso cann"
"but must donate yours ah"
LOLOLOLOL
than the girls all like wtf???
than siam

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
HAHAHAHAH
OMG OMG OMG.
HAHAHAH
your frens all damn funny la

(name)
horny school
see i considered decent liao ah

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
HAHA
ya rite

(name)
but now im oso like abit siao siao liao

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you p6 tht time

(name)
can feel the desponess in me
super damn horny loh

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woah?
haha
desponess

(name)
i tell you if p6 im horny
now im hornyx10

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
YES I AGREE
hahahahah

(name)
slowly in class la
so very soon
my whole class is horny la

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next year
i see u gay

(name)
im not gay, im lesbian

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
HAHAHAHAH
OMGGGGGG

(name)
lol
i mean seriously

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despo?
woah
haha

(name)
ya la
but im resisting la
cant commint in a relationship now anyway

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
nice one(:
now say that,
last time pri sch that time
got 83742874273628 lah

(name)
uh?

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gf
haha

(name)
83742874273628 nia?

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HAHAHAHA

(name)
lol

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FINE FINE

(name)
but play play one la

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832479236487263487284628 TIMES MANY MANY
HAHAHA

(name)
now im serious le okay
lol

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
haha
okay

(ok then we chatted awhile then had to go)

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can i copy and paste the convo into my blog?
let everyone laugh
can can?

(name)
nuuuu
cannot

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if you mind then is ok(:

(name)
later i die 12
lol
my fren see liao i gg xx gxxg
sry

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pls la.

(name)
you can describe

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how they even come and find my blog

(name)
but not copy n paste lol 12

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ok wait.

(name)
and put me as annonymus

Charlotte's webb .start picking my pieces slowly
ok. i put u as annoymus,
but copy and paste,
can?

(name)
okay la

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haha ok!

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http://catching-the-last-raindrops.blogspot.com/
so next time you can go see it(:
u can tell me take it down
if you rly dun like it
haha
but i think

(name)
haha ok

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everyone will laugh like shit
yup yup
enjoy your brownies

(name)
lol okay

omg so hilarious la. damn funny. haha, and they're despo. oh man. haha ok yup- i cut alot of parts out cos its so long and the com started lagging so i had to shorten and cut off the not related parts of cos we side tracked alot. so basically this whole things shows how seriously despo and hilarious they are.

2009-02-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

OMGOMGOMG ANOTHER CAKE TODAY hahhaah. guides had fun! yay, we celebrated me and alex bdae after guides hahahah. sorry the pics are with abigal i think, will get it from her soon. ABIGAL I WANT THE PICS! haha, anyway. we were rushing the cedar fiesta banner for guides. so after the bade cake and song, me and alex went back to work on the banner, then omg. after like 20 min suddenly "HAPPY BDAE!!" the rest of the guides suddenly rushed to me then, omg, they were like splashing and putting the left over cake all over me and alex faces and shirt, and hair omg omg omg, super funny we were screaming until the sec2s and some dancers stared at us. omg. thennnn, in the toilet, me and alex (tessa was there helping us to wash up too, and mine took the longest cos i long hair, and all the cake got stuck in it, THANK YOU TESSA FOR YOUR HELP GAL!) were washing up, suddenly "happy bdae!" and we got smack on the butt by abigal with her wet hands, and we had hand prints on them! omg, haha, then tessa also got, dunno how sia, and then she couldnt take it so she wet her whole skirt so that no one can see her hand prints on her skirt hahahah, yup. and liyue, glad you cheered up le(:

thank you joey, you totally made me high again today ahhahaha.(:

taggies:
WC! hahah omg, how t (OMG WC IS TALKING TO ME ONLINE NOW JUST WHEN I'M TYPING THIS!)
Woan Chin - [i]time waits for no one[/i] says:
om
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hahaha
Woan Chin - [i]time waits for no one[/i] says:
i can't believe i missed ur bdae
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I NOE
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I SAW MY TAG
Woan Chin - [i]time waits for no one[/i] says:
shutup
Woan Chin - [i]time waits for no one[/i] says:
WAHAHA
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REPLYIN TO IT NOW
Woan Chin - [i]time waits for no one[/i] says:
ARNT' I SWEET
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OOOPS
Woan Chin - [i]time waits for no one[/i] says:
OK
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wrong timing
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ok
Woan Chin - [i]time waits for no one[/i] says:
go on

haha so qiao la! hahah yup. ANYWAY wc how you noe is abt it hahahah(:

and hello cass! haha(:

THANK YOU EVERYONE! MY BADE WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN THIS ENJOYABLE WITHOUT YOU(:

2009-02-10T22:47:00.005+08:00

yay finally i'm done with cedar fiesta accts, gotta print it out

thank you li yue, samantha, amanda, joey, yan xin, joy, jue ying, sherilyn, my angel(: charlotte cheong, siti, wen min, howard, sec2 pcs for that bdae song during courtyard, 2h for that lovely bade cake, 3i for that bade song, thank you kellie and pei yan for that water splashhhh hahaha(:

THANK YOU LIYUE, i noe you planned it all, i noe how much effort you put in, thank you for that awesome cake (oops we din take a pic of it argh) everyone enjoyed it (: thank you for your lovely dress too! samantha got so excited when she saw it cos she wanted to show me how much i would have love it hahaah(: it's rly nice, i'll wear it soon(: yay yay(: thank you amanda for all the planning too, with your necklace(: it's smth i wanted, ask samantha, we were toking abt our pass shopping memory at far east when i opened your present! (:

yay thank you wen min and charlotte c for your presents(: wen min, you're motivating me to get ear piercing soon heeh(: but anyway i'm intending to soon(:, liyue's begging me for so long hahahha. thank you JOEY! for ur card and the present though i got it long ago le haha. but omg, you called me and i told you my whole day. hahaha, always enjoy our long chats, it makes me revived! thank you sam, today was fun with you. esp when we were crapping so much the whole day hahaah, thank you for your jigzaw puzzle note, SUPER COOL, and i was so afraid the whole thing would come to pieces hhahah

thank you joy for your present, it's cute(: thank you for your lovely thought yan xin(: jue ying and sherilyn! yay, 2h pals! thanks(: and my angelll hahahah, i'll reply your letter soon thank you for the m&ms(: thanks siti, it's the first card i received today haha(:

omg, and howard, sometimes you seriously scare me, the extent of the things you can do. i.was.stun. haha, no doubt(: i guess you're nice on the inside, just dosent noe how to really express it all out, cos your sms and wad you were, were totally like 2 different person. and. what really happened, i'm trying not to think abt it, i'm not putting it in mind, though it seriously freaked me out and nic's asking me to do some crazy stuff now. thank you nic, for making sure i was ok just now hahaha, i was damn tramatised when it happened though, though you din come and save me but i am safe haah, but you still cared. i can tell you're abit pissed at him, with you desperately asking me to return all those stuff back to him, omg,. & i think your idea abt you trying to be my bf to scare him away is soooo funny hahahha. omg, you seriously amaze me too.

thank you constance, i noe you were pissed too, hahaha, me too! i was freaked, esp when that person followed me all the way to the interchange and everyone was looking omg omgomg.

oh yea, guys, if you rly want to noe the full story ask me soon, it scared me quite abit haha.

OMG i got wet today. today 3i sang for me bdae song, then at the end of it, kellie and pei yan sprayed water on me with their nikes. hahaha, and i was wet, and sam's chair was super super wet hahaha, they did this to varsha ytd, and today to me, so next person on the bdae list (; get ready! haha if i'm not wrong i think it's shi hui, 14 feb woots! haha, but kellie and pei yan thank you for that, it was fun! haha.

oh oh, and again this year, you were the first person to wish me(: you said you wanted to be the first one every year, and i was trying so hard to resist telling that i love you(:, hehe, i did k, not like you, no self control de hahaha. but you kinda played cheat this year, but you smart la, leave the blanks so i wouldnt read it yet and only let me scroll down at 12 haha. omg, but if i really play by the fair rules, qi kai ( i was shocked when i saw his sms cos i havent been toking to him for very very long) would have been the first one to wish me within that day haha(:

oh yes, thank you kaushi, lucas,gace (sng), charlotte c, darren, varsha, jane, joey, isaac, heather, izzah, kellie and everyone else who wished me, i appreciate it(:

yay yay, there's much more i want to thank, much more i want to say.

thank you everyone else for your presents, cards, wishes etc(: i rly appreciate it(:

thank you Lord for my revival today
thank you for the eventful parts which made everything possible

*
oh yea, just now had chinese tuition.
omg. i only told my teacher i had lunch outing with my church frens
and then she immediately suspected "nan peng you"
"mei you la"
then she was like "come on la, sec3 le, sure got smth on with guys, yi ding you zui qiu ze" (she said in chinese sorry my chinese no good to translate this back to chinese haha)
then i just shake my head, "mei you la" then she immendiately "wa, lian hong le"
".." erm, pls loh, i didnt even do anything, i wasnt even thinking of anything la.
but the whole thing seriously made me laugh, when she kept probbing in,
smth even my mum have never done before omg
hahaha, prob my mum ask her do that for her,
cos my mum dosent noe much hahaha, so funny!

2009-02-09T22:24:00.002+08:00

didnt you realise how i really felt?
didnt you realise how hurt i was?
i noe you did,
you are one of the best ppl i noe who really understands and feels other's emotions.
but yet,
even if you didnt,
i was hurt
not because they started it all,
but because when the time i really thought you would stand by me and really understand how i feel,
you chose to be part of it,
and not staying strong for me,
just like what i thought it would have been.
it happened once ald,
why did history have to repeat itself,
right in the same context,
just in a different place

when emotions are uncontrolable, you just really need someone to pour it all out.

and that,
was how i truly felt, and it would have been more.
until suddenly joey called me just now and asked to meet.
it really was a refreshing moment,
until i really poured it all out,
i felt much better,
without the need to write it down here.

but i'm doing this, so that hopefully you would noe. THANK YOU JOEY! your call and then the long long long chat with you with your bro down there waiting impatiently for us to stop toking and go home seriously brightened up my day. it's like the time of the day since i really got high since months,.

yup, and today went for bdae lunch with my mum, cos i told her i got smth on tmr aft sch hahaha. and towards the end, i got pissed her with her, i decided not to quarrel with her hahaha. yup, but we bought the ingredients for brownies! yay, i just finished baking it though.

make my day tmr the best time i have yet to enjoy this year(:

&& sweetheart, i just want to tell you that i felt revived from tht phone call ytd nite, i noe you dun noe my part of the story yet, but since i do noe yours now, i hope you felt revived the way i felt it(:

*
phoebe! yup thx for the encouragement
rosa and leng jen! yay thx(:
izzah! yup, done(:
joeyyyy! omg, rmb wad i told you abt the CPR thing just now! haahah!
ANGEL!! omg yay(: haha
samantha! haha, omg is NOT MR SNG! Hahaha, is my church fren la, he's retarded though hahah
li yue! hehe yay(: hope you liked the present i got you for your bdae too(:
joan! haha, sorry, i need find your blog add first(:
amanda! yay thanks!

2009-02-08T17:09:00.003+08:00

currently i'm evesdropping on my sister and my mum toking, wth, they're toking abt one of my church frens who hasnt been coming, suddenly appearing today with her bf. i tot it was normal. then now they're toking abt it. my mum was saying she is 17 only, then my sister "so young got bf!". erm, very young meh? haha. wth. then my mum teaching my sister now, cos she dosent even noe wad is "b.g.r" haha. omg. so funny. my mum's saying now "probably she cant handle the attration of boys cos she's been in an all gals sch since pri sch" wth! hahahah, omg.

will post again ltr after i complete cip proposal for orchid. need to sell my fiesta tickets to my tuition teacher who is also my neighbour. trying my luck, hopefully she''ll buy(:

2009-02-06T20:57:00.004+08:00

today whole sch learnt CPR. and it's super super cool! omg omg omg. super funny la, when we went pratical. the whole class had fun yo(: haha and i almost lost my mini ann ( or isit mini ant) hahah, after guides i suddenly found it gone. then omg, i was freaking out like shit. in the end found it somewhere far from my bag at the stage area. was super anxious cos we need it for oac., thank you kaushi, abigail for waiting for me and helping me find it haha, hopefully tt's my mini ann bah haha(:

today was super sian, just like any normal day, and my hp keys couldnt work and i had to keep oning and offing then the 6th time then can work.

oh man, there's piano tmr. sian, it's like every fri nite i'm dreading piano cos it's on sat morning. like seriously, why cant i just quit. not having the passion for it anymore, so wad's the point. i'm just doing it just to finish it now, regardless of getting good grades or not. i cant stand it anymore.

taggies(:

taffy! omg yes, you super pro la (: all the best for your designs, i'll buy them(:

Kaushi! haha, make smth interesting happen i'll definitely tok abt it hahaha

Heather! omg ya! CANT WAIT FOR FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYY(:

helpppp

help me step out from it,

break free from what i'm going thru,

bringing me back to where i want to be and should be

Lord i need you,

the author and perfector of my life..

2009-02-05T18:43:00.003+08:00

sorry i havent been posting for the past few days, got so caught up with stuff., omg, breaking dawn is ssooooo nice! i think it's the best among the four books heh.

today nothing much happened though, OH, but today mr leng was so retarded during jogging, he wasnt even jogging with us as a cls la! he was practically sprinting and cutting thru all the routes in the field and we were laughing like crazy till we couldnt jog properly. then after awhile he tired le, then he will wait for us at a point until our class pass him, then he will go sprint again. and the way he jogs, his arms are so exxagerated! damn funny

seriously hope i have some suprise for my bade this year, if not it's gonna be sian. haha, but in anyways, it'll be ok(:

thank you joey, kaushi and sam, you guys have always been here for me(: opps, sorry kaushi, i noe i owe you something here, i'll do it soon when i find the right time hehe(:

ohoh, and joshua just asked me to go see his video, super funny! but he rly has an interest in his productions HAHHAHA. omg, jiayou dude! next time i see you become some producer yo(:

samantha too, jiayou for everything ya,. i noe wad you are going thru, the stress and all. i noe you rly can do it, you have the ability and potential. i have faith in u to bring it all out, no doubts(: if you need help in anything, i'm always willing to help yea!

orchid jiayou, we'll enjoy cip together, thank you so much for all your comments and feedbacks, i rly need them as we go along helping one another in this cip, we'll enjoy ourselves and show the rest who orchidians are(:

taggies:
varsha! omg hahahha, no la, wun kill (:
joshua! omg you obessed with your productions hahahah
Joey! darren cant go kbox? expected la, haha yes words too small bah. anyway thanks for the encouragement and all your other smses which always brighten up my day(: stay strong, stay cheerful too gal!
charlotte c! hahah yay i got my letter le, but then i also finding time to write hahaha
wc! hahah omg hehe, i'm still here to help la. how's psl and 2m?(: got bully xin ting not haha(:
Liyue! haha cos wad, havent say finish yet, dun understand. yup, must catch up soon though. btw, it's pink i think haha, && the person noes abt it i think haha
Leena! haha omg yes, loving 3i more and more each time yo(: haha you leh? how are you doing(:
nic! omg no one noes exactly except the stress gang ppl, chill dude! ohoh, and i dunno if i can make it on that day sia
Amanda! omg hahah yes yes(: thanks for ur concern yo

let my dreams come thru
cos everyday i just find myself wishing for it to happen
the stage is ours to be(:

I`d wish this moment,
Was ours to own it and that it would never leave
Then I would thank that star,
That made our wish come true
Cause he knows that where you are,
is where I should be too.

everytime i just keep falling,
deeper and deeper
just for it to happen,
clinging all my hopes on it..

You wanna show the world,
but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance

(kidnap my heart)

2009-02-01T20:54:00.005+08:00

suddenly there's so much to do, so much to handle

i need a strength and a pillar of support

i dun want to feel i'm alone on it.

but yet the feeling worries me,

the emotions, the troubles just tear me into bits.

and it's not just that.

why is it just so hard and painful to see them falling away.

and yet, when you try so hard to let go,

you just see yourself being betrayed.

why is it when frens just go on their own, and don't even understand how you feel

or someone who calls you a "BBF" misuse your trust

or someone who claims you are his best fren who dun rly try to truly care abt how you feel,and dun want to close the gap.

or someone, who you poured all out to, dont even try to show the least concern, not a call, note.nothing.

and when the tears really start to fall, you just find to see that you're there all alone

i need a miracle

Lord i need you now

you are my pillar of support, and you have never failed me

calm me down, and lead, guide and show me the way working this out.

though times may be tough,

and experiencing so much at a go is not easy,

but i noe that with you, i can do all things

let my faith grow stronger with you and to just really approach what i have to face bravely.

Lord, however tiring it is, help me to pull thru.

and whatever frens that you may want to bless me with along the way Lord,

help me to treasure them even more

help me to see the jewel in them

and be a blessing to everyone ard me

help me to pick up my broken pieces slowly, piecing back wad i have left, and moving on

to find better frens in life

at the end of it all,

i noe you have a purpose for me

help me to take it as an experience,

everything that i have to go thru and find,

from this step on,

i entrust all that i do,

in your mighty name

2009-01-28T20:31:00.005+08:00

yay yay yay. nic and me so excited to sing duet again, after soooo long, nic you still owe me one!he suddenly today come ask me if want sing lian ai da ren, omg the song damn nice! i heard the song b4, just didnt noe this was the title hahaha.

today was the 2nd time i went to the recovery room. the first time was just last wed when graphite went into my palm. omg,. that day was during chinese lesson, and i was trying to stop my mechanical pencil from falling off the table, and instead it went straight down into my palm, sam saw le, hurry ask me go wash the graphite off, cos she's oai first aid dept, but then no time, so i just went to heather and showed her, then she started panic-ing instead of me, super funny la! she pulled out her first aid manual then flipped thru then she was like "i noe i''m breaking all the first aid rules haha-cos supposed to memorise all these" the book super thick la!then she couldnt find anything in there that says abt graphite going into the skin so she rush me to recovery room, and these while, is she panic-ing, not me,. haha super funny, that was last wed.

today durin pe we played volleyball then accidentally during the practise charmaine and i banged into each other while trying to save the ball, then cos we were facing opposite each other, so her fingers were facing mine directly, then our fingers accidentally hit (or is it poke haha?)each other, then suddenly got static, but when i look down at my hand, there was a cut and blood.. but charmaine, thanks for going with me to the recovery room, it's rly not your fault, no need feel bad ya, that's why i wrote you that note, cos i scared you rly think is your fault, i rly dun blame you at all(: i rly appreciate it though, thank you rosa, your first aid dun suck la, i even told ms nair for you that you are qualified haha, but super funny,when u gauzed the whole wound and put all that funny funny cream. i was so fascinated by that whole thing on my hand i took a pic of it haha(: thank you sam for waiting too, a missing abit of chinese, haha.

today no guides so went with taffy and sam to check the prices for cedar fiesta tee-shirts. woah, chill sam and taffy, we'll find smth soon, no worries(:

omg, this morning i was deciding so hard whether to bring eclipse to sch or not, if i dint bring to sch, i wouldnt have accidentally done it! omg omg, i'm sooooo sorry, i really din mean to do seriously! arhhhh!!

this morning i woke up suddenly at 4 or 5 plus i think. and it's not the first time, and everytime i wake up earlier than normal i always start thinking of you before i find myself falling back into dreamland again. what you said to me ytd nite was overwhelming. i'm getting over you ald, and i really dun want to come back to that situation again, for two and a half mths when i really felt like dying. i'm sorry for all the hurt and pain i caused, i noe we can only be rly good frens now, but i'll treasure you more than ever now, though i noe wadever happens from now on, will never be the same as wad it used to be, but thank you for the memories, though i noe, it could have been much much better

tag replies:
Xuan Jie! hello(: yay,all the best to you too, cont to keep in touch soon yea!
Heather! haha, thanks thanks, though it wasnt really counted as official bdae haha(:
Ariel! sure sure(:
Nic! thanks(:

2009-01-26T22:58:00.004+08:00

today went visitation for first day of cny, and for the first time in my life, my dad gave me ang bao for cny hahaha, my parents have never given me ang bao since young, so was super shock la, when he suddenly gave me. my mum till today havent give yet ):

ohoh, today is my bdae according to chinese calandar, haha, cos in 1994, i was born on chu yi haha(:

ohoh, i finally received my damn late christmas present from lucas aft so long ytd. damn cute (: THANK YOU, now i have smth to look at and think abt.

ok taggies:
Jane: ooh, wad's your new link? haha woah nic very efficient with communicating ahh(: how's ur msia trip?(:

2009-01-23T22:17:00.003+08:00

You are Extroverted, Conscientious, Agreeable and Neurotic

Extroversion:

You have high extroversion.

You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.

You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.

Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go"!

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.

Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.

Most things in your life are organized and planned well.

But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have medium agreeableness.

You're generally a friendly and trusting person.

But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.

You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.

Neuroticism:

You have medium neuroticism.

You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.

Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.

Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is low.

You're a pretty conservative person, and you favor what's socially acceptable.

You think that change for novelty's sake is a very bad idea.

While some may see this as boring, many see you as dependable and wise.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Your Style is Classy

You've got class, and you know how to put together a guy catching outfit

You're more likely to shop at Bloomie's than bebe

For you style is looking like a million bucks...

And you're always do with your fantastic yet feminine wardrobe

Is Your Date Fashion Style Classy, Sassy, or Trashy?

Your Love is Based on Friendship

For you, chemistry doesn't really happen without compatibility.

Companionship and openness are the most important parts of your relationships.

Whoever you love should be your best friend.

And falling in love with a good friend is never out of the question.

Why your love can last: You only fall for people who you truly understand... and who truly understand you

Why your love can fail: Sometimes you don't admit how important physical chemistry is to you

What Is Your Love Based On?

You Live Your Life Strongly

You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness.

You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.

You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many acquaintances.

You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

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