how did things end up this way?
it's making me worry for you
and i cant concentrate properly everytime my mind starts to wonder off
prob its just me that wants to cling on so tightly
and even if you dont even bother i just want you to know that i'm still here no matter wad
my heart still aches for you
but i'll still cont to pray
stay safe alright
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
3:03 PM
HAPPY BDAE JOEY!
May our frenship last(:
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
11:48 PM
you got me thinking
now you just got me thinking tt i have to blog immediately or not the thoughts would have drift to the back of my head.
heyyy, i just want you to noe, that this special bond we all hold in our hearts really means alot to me, and i really dont want you to give it all up just like this, if i even had a chance and if i were you, i would really want to make things work instead. our frenship held so long is defintely not a coincedence and its ald amazing how we could even last this long. so pls pls, dont give it all up like this alright. once you really make your decision, and if it turns out smth i'm hoping it dosent turn out to be, i'm quite sure that there'll be smth lacking in this frenship, and its gonna be like smth's missing and things will no longer be the same, no more as perfect or complete as it used to be.you make up a significant part of this frenship and you're rly smth and a part of us. i must agree with u, that things are changing among us all, but its also prob just a reminder or a wake up call for us to treasure wad we have, and things that we can no longer get once again once we let go of them. its difficult to find it back again, and once we let go, the pain and misery and regret is gonna be difficult for us all. so dude, i really want you to think abt it again. think it thru abt wad you really want.
i dont want you to leave
lets make things work
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i noe i havent been blogging properly for so long, cos lately even after exams things are just tiring me down and when i sit in front of the com, nothing comes into my mind to blog. so i'll catch this moment to blog abt the things that happened lately.
ohoh, went to orchard with liyue and amanda on mon. the pics are uploaded in my fb! maybe later if i feel like it or have time then i shall upload here or smth. it was really cool., i must say we had a lot of fun camwhoring hur(; and amanda, thanks for being our part time camera man since you didnt want to be in the shots. hoho.
gosh. guides spf day camp is coming up, next mon to thu, hopefully i dont die over the days. esp with tent pitching and plus, chinese tuition every alt nite can kill me, so tiringggg! ): oh man. but i am also looking forward to some parts of the hols after chinese olevels. perak trip, family trip and youth camp! woots! ok yes i must admit i may be freaking out abit for perak trip but i'm looking forward to it at the same time cos i told myself i'm gonna approach the adventure with an eager and positive spirit. hoho. yes yes charlotte is so looking forward to the trip to the reputed haunted castle, the waterfall abseiling down 15m, the trip to the place full of stray dogs, the hotel near the forest, the lodge we're gonna stay that is full of leaches, cave exploration that is full of bats hanging down from the cave that we have to get down on our knees and crawl in the mud. oh gosh. ok but the thing i AM really looking forward to without freaking out for is the white water rafting. woootts!(: yay, ok but for the rest i still want to uptake my challenge and enjoy the adventure man! && plus after that, family trip to bangkok is gonna rawk cos i'm gonna spludge,. yay(:
ok now that i really start picking up blogging i realise i have so many things to say over the days. argh if only i had a good state of mind to do so. now everything can pour out in one loonnngg post.
just now i went to j8,supposed to buy logists for spf camp with edna and beaunice. woah, and when i reached there, they got everything ald. luo ting was there too. so i just had to help carry things back from bishan and travel all the way back to pasir ris again. argh.
just now was doing my chinese bao zhang. i havent wrote my yin xiang yet and i suddenly feel like blogging so here i am. so i dont think i'll go online again to nite, maybe only after i'm done with my compo and maybe another of my chinese practise paper or smth. gosh, still have to do my tent pitching stuff! but hey, guess it'll all pay off after the sec1 and 2 guides learn it in spf camp. jiayou us(:
ytd was quite an interesting nite, esp when things start to get more evident of how obsess (gal) is with (guy) hahaha. i cant say the names here or ppl might start killing me if they see this. safety precautions. but its interesting how each sceneario gets more exciting and how it piece into a story. hey the story hasnt end yet and i so want to noe wads the ending soon. ok maybe that'll be like in 6 months or more.
haha still, thanks gillian for sharing all the interesting moments with me. like how you send that msg, omg its still making me laugh when i think of wad you did hahaha!
hmm lets see wad else can i blog abt
ohoh, i still cant believe i typed so freaking much on msn to yr that he's like the first person that i've finished my msg history tt i've to start a new one. and that's like only over a spend of how many months since my com revived from the virus? argh. but its cool and i'm so not complaining abt it, all the best for results dude!(:
and oh yes, adrian, dont sleep too late alright! jiayou with your ncc stuff i noe you can do this, its just for a short time and i noe you're gonna pull thru!
hmmmm. joey's bdae is coming in like5 more hours! yay.
this is like one of the longest posts i've ever written, somemore no photo spam sia. not bad charlotte!
Lord i want to rely on You even more now
so take my life and let it be
as i look up to you as my tower. shelter and refuge
you'll forever be my very present help in time of need
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
6:28 PM
If my heart has grown cold,
There Your love will unfold;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
When I'm blind to my way,
There Your Spirit will pray;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
Oceans will part; nations come
At the whisper of Your call.
Hope will rise; glory shown.
In my life, Your will be done.
Present suffering may pass,
Lord, Your mercy will last;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
And my heart will find praise,
I'll delight in Your way,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
7:02 PM
you said i aint insignificant
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
9:10 PM
my 100th post!(:
HOORAY TO MY 100TH POST(:
hahaha today studying with brenda at her house was quite productive and hilarious. its meaningful how everytime we start side tracking we'll talk abt funny and amazing stuff hahahah! its so qiao we got almost the same dream, (pregnant??!!) omg man! hahaha
"wad happens when acid reacts with metals above h2 in reactivity series?"
"erhm when reacted, salt and h2 will come out"
hahah! hey at first i didnt noe wad she was laughing abt only when i answered another chem question of hers and said the same thing and she started laughing again then i realised hahahah!
oh and today i'm so kuku man. so many train incidents. from brenda's hse i took the bus to eunos mrt. then i was approaching the escalator. then on the left was the escalator, on the right was the stairs to the platform. above the escalator was the sign "to joo koon", on the stairs there was "to pasir ris". then omg i was so stupid i was like thinking to myself "i'm going pasir ris way so i must go to the left" then omggg. i was like ald at the foot of the escalator then i suddenly turn around to want to take the stairs. everyone started staring, like why am i taking the stairs suddenly when i was ald at the escalator.
ok fine. save the embarassment. the train came. i hopped on. train starts moving. reaches next station"
"paya lebar"
"OH DAMMIT. since when paya lebar was before eunos towards pasir ris!" oh dammit. immediately i look up at the sign thingy on the train, shit. and dashed out of the mrt to the next platform.
just how stupid can i get when i just got an incident b4 that abt pasir ris pointing to the right, and i'm boarding the left train?! omg omg this is was studying too much can do to you ahhaha!
but studying with brenda was produtive no doubt hoho(:
jiayou everyone, we can pull thru all tgth!
hey dude pls hold your tongue and ppl'll trust you even more(:
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
8:41 PM
yay(: studying with brenda after sch tmr cos we each deperately need to exchange bio and chem notes with each other, seeing how we suckkk at it at this rate our teachers are going! oh mannn but yes i'm looking forward to it!
only started studying at 4.30 and gosh, now staring at my hardly done 10 year series for chem is worrying. guess i'll complete it soon enough. jiayou char(:
sch today was normal. somehow everytime when i start blogging now i can hardly rmb all the interesting things that happened. prob my memory's failing me, or my life's getting more dull.
hahah going home with gillian today aft a long break was funny. its funny when i think that he and his level mates are gonna shout the school song tmr. hahahha. anyway,all the best with it tmr, hope you have some drama on yourself, though its gonna be quite hard for me to be there (:
now back to my 10 year series.. sighhh.
Lord you say you're never leave nor will you forsake me, so i'm forging on with the confidence and your strength to guide me thru, all till the very end that you'll take me to wherever you bring me
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
6:29 PM
arghhh. revision's so crapy man. fell asleep as usual. and only managed to do hist geog and ss for the two days, need to do math now, grrr
currently talking to uly online, and oh gosh, the ghost stories he's telling me freaks me out man. heh. ghost hunting hur(: hahaha. oh gosh, and my printer's nuts. cant seem to print things straight for nuts. mannn.
i'm not supposed to be on the com for so long but i'm so confused, its just the feeling when you realise you're missing out on so many things in life. and when you rly cant control the whirlwind of emotions anymorecome on charlotte, its going to be over soon. let God lead the way, and you'll be blessed by the things he has planned for you(:
with all i am Lord i commit again
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
9:02 PM
chinese exam totally was so screwed for paper omg omg omg but on the other hand there were areas which wasnt so bad. oh goshhhhhhh i sooo dont want to go for piano tmr man. sux sux..
hahahah gillian! i'm still laughing over wad you told me ytd. not bad, its rly damn crazy sia. anywya dude, jiayou for your olevels too.
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
7:05 PM
watching the fann wong and chris lee wedding now. aft tt i'm so gonna mug again.
JIAYOU EVERYONE FOR EOYS!(:
mugmugmugmugmug
stay focus and not get distracted
i really really need the revival again
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
8:29 PM
hey steady there charlotte, you're doing greatits this rare opportunity nows adays where i tell myself i should blog today but in the end when i use the com i cant drag myself to blog, cos the words just cant come out. its that struggling thing. hoho.
anyways, today was quite reviving. after church. went home. study chem (hopefully i rmb my stuff). did two log question and i couldnt get the correct answers. gave up. and went jogging with priya. not bad not bad. its been really long since i jog so properly. jogging sessions in sch are kinda like me dragging myself to jog. but this time is the "i want to" mood. yay.
finally i recovered aft being sick for one week. i slept at 9 on thu and friday. not bad hoho.
my revision's going rly terribly so the next time i need to, erhm, report to yr (HAHA its an inside story) i rly dunno how to compare to his super super fast speed in revision. he still has so much free time to go online and slack hur(;
its funny how sometimes we cant define how we feel of another person, and when you dunno wad to feel. when he's ald decided smth else and you've kinda go with it, but at the same time, cant completely live with it. it's confusing and can drive ppl nuts. hoho(:
hey dude, seriously get a life yeah. let others see the real man in you, and they'll love you for that i'm sure. there's better opportunities for you next time, really(: steady and dont rush yourself!
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i think i noe wad you're up to, and i'm just being myself. pls pls pls,that move totally gave yourself away! but still, i'm letting things take its way and stay calm and cool(:
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
7:42 PM
spent the whole day doing math
trigoooooo
aft tt i fell asleep for 2 hours, ate dinner, then went online.
i promised myself i wont go there anymore, but apparently i was too curious. the emotional turns start again.
searched frantically to see if sam has gone offline. she hasnt, sighed in relieve, so immediately went to talk to her. before that i went to dawn's blog, and chanced upon a song i used to sing in church last time, and now its playing in my head and it totally reflects how i feel now. talking to sam rly helps. she listens(: i feel so much better.
felt calmer.
starts blogging.
when i saw wad you wrote there, once again i was overwhelmed with emotions again. i noe i did wrong too, it was it was my fault undeniably. though i noe we havent been talking much for rly rly long, yes i'm feeling more lonely and smth in my life's just gone. i've definately learned from it, and its just so heart warming to see all of you become even more closer. i want to be part of the team again, but if God really dosent want it to happen, and everything seems best the way it is now, i will let go. i'm praying for you too everyday.into your handi commit againwith all i amfor You Lord You hold my worldin the path of Your handand I'm forever YoursJesus i believe in YouJesus i belong to YouYou're the reason that i livethe reason that i singwith all i ami'll walk with Youwherever You gothrough tears and joyI'll trust in Youand i will livein all of Your ways and Your promises foreveri will worship i will worship You foreverLord i dont noe wad to feel nowi just need a miracle guide me thru the right wayopen her heartand show Yourself strong through it all
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
8:04 PM
damn the pics cant seem to align properly gosh
YESSSS!! my blogger can work again today! oh gosh, i'm so happy hoho(: since it's quite a rare opportunity for this to happen i shall blog properly again. yay yay
ok stare hard at this picture and you'll see smth in between my sis and my dad. hahaha that's my cousin, the effect it has on him spinning is uber cool!
just came home from guides and i suddenly had the urge to blog in my patrol blog later, it has to be updated really really urgently! gosh, esp since it hasnt been updated for loonggg.
guides was not bad today, me, mel and abigail taught the sec1s how to pitch a tent. the sec1s learn quite fast and hopefully they understood wad we were saying, hope it wasnt too fast! but gosh, i think my thumb kinda bled halfway, i think i cut on smth or smth happen. but i'm ok(:
on a random note, it's so hilarious how my sisters only realised my nail polish after two days of putting it, and my mum, after four (or isit five) days hahaha.
gosh, math is so so so damn hard now. later aft i've done my math hmwk i've got to work extra hard and practise on it, gosh.
now then i start uploading my ayc pics from my hp to my com hoho. super super late sia
ok time for the
super super long over due photos!(:
uly uly(:
clarence and uly with thier red and white nail polish. hoho(:
one of the days to sentosa for ayc orientation dry run(: priya, kaushi, me! oh gosh, and yes, i think i need to dedicate a post to both of them some day., priya and kaushi, must remind me soon ah!(:
amanda and i(: yay hope you enjoyed ayc!(:
yelin, kaushi and me. taken last day after debreif (or was it before debrief)
on national day! supposed to be me and surya only but yr became extra and came in hur hur(: hahaha
PREFECTS!! yay baby. the ops and trg ayc com vs and cedar psls took their own pic (which was like so overcrowding compared to ours) so we took our own prefects photo. hoho
hehehhehe everyone looking at diff directions except me hahaha
mat looks SUPER COOL!!!!(:
AH BENGS...
AND EVEN MORE HAHAHA
surya and i aft farewell dinner! oh gosh, sooo dark!
half of trg! and ryan in his yellow ayc tee on national day heheh
ok i must emphasise this, yuan rong looks super super glam here!! ( i think he just woke up from his sleep or smth actually but yea, looks DAMN GLAM!)
yay i dunno which direction we're looking at, must be too many cameras focusing on us heheheh
PATROL OUTING!!! orchid is the bomb!
yayyyy sec2s and 3s of orchid awesomest of the awesomest(:
clearer pic(:
in the sun (: i rmbed i nearly fell in the rollerskates hahahha.
lj to museum on wed or smth(:
the coach rly damn disgustin when blended with our uni. oh gosh
guides!!(:
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
7:04 PM
dammit. the blogger toolbar is still not back and this is getting me so so sian of blogging ald. prob thinking to changing to word press or livejournal or smth soon.
i need more inspiration
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
9:35 PM
his agony at the garden
today in church we had an awesome sermon,and i was thinking so much about everything on my part as Pastor Chia was speaking, and it was so meaningful cos it really helpped me get a grip of myself and everything that i'm facing.
and yes Lord,
i'm gonna submit myself to You,
just like how Jesus did as he went thru his agony at the garden of gethsamane
he did not retailate against his enemies,
so just as i am here in my own battlefield,
i will not retailate
because You will never fail me
in You i find rest
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
9:43 PM
i'm so gonna promise myself that i'm not gonna read or have anything to do with it until i'm totally over it
it takes time for the wound to heal
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
10:32 PM
the revivial!
YEAH BABY! MY BLOGGER IS REVIVED. cos i dont feel sian cos i see my toolbar back here again! can post pics yay yay yay(:i feel so happy now(:
ohoh anyway, sorry to everyone that i locked my blog for awhile, it's gonna be livelier and less emo now i promise(: (thanks to the ppl who asked me why i locked my blog, and were concerned for me once they knew the reason, it made me realise how many ppl cared for me out there)
gosh i hate it when i dont noe wad to blog abt. so many things have happened but i dunno where to start!
anyway, on a random note, i realised a few days ago that one of my yellow ayc tee is stained by some black and disgusting thing, like omg man. it looks so horribly old and worn out when i only wear it for like once at home. sucks. my mum went to wash it with some black clothes and my shirt became blackish. YUCK.
ohoh, went shopping with sam on mon(: and i finally bought my sch bag! yayyyy, hahah sam, i can accompany you to get your zebra bag soon(:
half my hols are spend to mug mug and mug, it can get really boring but i realised i'm kinda more focus as compared to mid years and ct3. yay(:
it's so amazing how God chose to take some things away from you, but at the end of it all you'll just realise that it's for the good in the end i guess, the pain or tears may be for the moment, but in the end you'll be comforted and reassured by God's amazing love and all the frens around you(: i feel so blessed(:
ok great, aft not blogging properly for so long i so dunno wad to blog abt anymore.
ohoh
yayyy, ytd went for trg gathering at jiaying's hse! had fun(: TRG COM FTW. it's just so amazing how frenships can be held so deeply and strong within 13 ppl when we just met in a matter months. and its so amazing how we miss each other so much, how we've all learn abt each other, and how we've all grown tgth.
at first, i met kaushi at py to get my (low-fat) pandan cake and help adrian to buy food. then in the end we went to sing post fair price, got pudding for adrian, then yr called and said he meet us there too, cos i was supposed to help him buy drinks too. then suddenly he called me...
"hello, are you at fair price there, cos i just got dropped off from the car and i can meet you there, cos i need go toilet, super urgent"
omg we burst out laughing, dunno why but the sound of it over the phone when he was telling me was super super funny and we couldnt stop laughing till the end.
"HAHAHAHAHAH - yeah ok, we're at fair price- HAHAHAH- we get sprite, coke- HAHAHA- and f&n for you ah"
"HAHAHAH- okok, i go help you carry later-HAHAH"
then we met adrian when walking towards the mrt, sorry we kinda made you walk back!
then uly and ryan joined us, and the way uly made his entrence was DAMN AWESOME. cos we knew he was on the same train as us, we told him to meet us in the carriage with the blue (or was it green? haha) seats. we were in the mrt carriage, then suddenly at one of the stops he suddenly jumped behind us, it gave us quite a big shock hahahah. when he came in he was like "haha, you noe it was so crowded for me to squeeze thru so many carriages to get here, so every stop i got off the train and rushed back into the train from the next door on the right" until he found us. damn cool(:
we played taboo, and yayyyy, our team worn! haha the other team didnt do their forfeit though, but its ok, we had loads of fun.
dinner was awesome as well, ppl should start eating more of my (low-fat) pandan cakes! HAHA. it was super hilarious when i met kaushi ytd at the bakery shop, then i was like "shit,. no pandan cake!" then kaushi was like "is here wad! the cake with the circle circle thing in the middle!" haha, then she came up with this funny idea that we should have gone to ask the aunty to squeeze out all the fats, and then we would have been charged an extra dollar HAHA, and when she said it to trg ytd nite, it was super hilarious. then when doro passed me the box of chocolate biscuit thing, she was like 'sorry i dont think this is low fat" erhhhh wth, now everyone thinks i only eat low fat food! hahahah then siang huat was like "is ok, eat all and as much as you can tonight, then we shall do a work out tonight" HAHA it was super funny when jia ying said it sounded sick. oh man hahahah, we burst out laughing(:
we had many many story telling sessions aft tt hahaha. and it kinda scared me alot. with all the murder case and everything, oh mannn until i got super super scared when yr cont telling me at nite, i was ald super super freaked out hahah(:
but overall, i must say the whole gathering brightened up my boring day, its nice to see everyone back again, the one big family(: dont ever let the bonds break!
bleh, the hols are gonna end so quickly, and i havent studied much, oh nooooo ):
thank God for things bright and beautiful
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
9:22 PM
why is it just so painful to see smth you hold on so dear to you snatched away from you so brutally
why is it just so hard to make others understand how things really are and the true feelings felt
why is it just so hard to be strong and fight 3 different fronts at the same time
why is just so difficult not to feel so tired of life ald that you dont even bother to try
why is it just so hard to hide the tears
Lord the 2 struggles you gave me, you helpped me survive thru
now the biggest rock you set in front of me, i need You even more
i miss the energy i used to have
everything's weighing down on me so hard i can hardly define my emtions anymore
and now even the emotional barrier is hurting me from expressing how i truly feel
get me out of the storm and step into the sunshine
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
9:33 PM
mixed feelings can drive the world crazy
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
2:53 PM
You Are Hesitant in Love
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You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You tend to take more than give in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
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People Envy Your Compassion
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You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.
People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.
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"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
2:49 PM
yayyyy. today's gonna be a free day for me. things feel more relax now that i think that it's kinda relax days till tues. but i guess time's just gonna fly so so quickly.
today nothing much happened though. just that i spent the whole time smsing and listening to music at the same time when doing my hmwk. hopefully more exciting things will come up soon(:
tmr's grandma's bdae dinner at some restaurant(: and goodness. some irritaing person with fever went to sch and my sis kena. and her whole class the next day 20 ppl never go sch. wth man. and my sister not even wanting to pracise social responsiblity too. eat dinner with my family still use her spoon to scoop veggi. arghhhhh.
yay tmr youth alive is having frisbee! gosh, the whole time i was in ayc, it just made me realised how much i missed going to church and how much i feel so detached from God. now i'm learning to treasure every sunday i have(: and thank God our cell's getting more lively and active(: yay yay(:
it's You i live for everyday
and omg, i today when i accidentally click my dad's blog then i realised that he private it hhahah
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
6:50 PM
SPORTS DAY!
yay i can upload pics today(:
firstly, sports day went well i must say, good job to the ics for sports day, yan xin, ,maria, nadia and jeslyn, you guys did a great job and the hard work put in to do your proposals and cue tables, and liasing with the teachers paid off(: thanks for always keeping me updated with your events too!
CONGRATS TO GUIDES, i noe you guys could do it, to deseriee, mel, phoebe and me(; yay yay. it was heartwarming to see all the guides crowding at the railings beside the track just to support, until the mcs and teachers had to ask the guides to go back to thier seats. thank you sec4s for the very loud g-double-o-d cheer for us once all 4 of us headed back to the grandstands. thanks amirah and sharyl for your milo and choc(: to the sec1 and sec2 guides, thanks for faithfully doing your yeo-man service today, thank you for your drinks and your efforts, and also supporting during our run(: to beaunice and sam (haha beaunice, sam told me you took a pic) hahah thanks for taking photos, i want to see the cool one! hahahah(: and to the rest of the sec3 guides, thanks for cheering your hearts out(:
to deseriee (sorry if i spelt wrong)
mel
phoebe
i noe you guys had muscle cramps and all but you guys still persevered through the pain and gave your best, together we form a great team!
to zhi hui, you've been a rly nice person to train with, mel phoebe and i knew how much deep inside you rly wanted to represent guides but we were amazed at the strength and cheerfulness you managed to show. thanks for the happy trgs, the support, and also for replacing me at the prize presentation cos i had to run 4by4(:
to caryn, hey i noe you were supposedly another reserve or smth, sad i didnt manage to train with you on the last trg, but good job anyway(: hopefully you managed to get your milo and choc too!
to joelance, taffy and rachel(: we four made a great team and i noe we all gave in our best effort yea? lets not take wadever happened to heart. its the experience that matters most and how we pushed on abiet the challenges posed to be tough against us. stay strong, stay cool! (:
went shopping at orchard with joelance, wan ting, shi hui and mabel today. gosh we walked like 4 shopping malls in orchard?!and oh gosh, we got lost from the mrt to far east, supposed to be walking towards it, and we just walk and walk, until we asked the stall lady how to go then we realised that we were all along walking away from it. oh man so retarded! haha. but i guess everyone enjoyed themselves (rite mabel? hahaha with her "i feel like chopping off my legs" and "i think i need to go to the toilet" like over 4 times tt shopping trip - which meant about one time an hour, until we kinda got sick of the toilet that everytime she mentioned toilet only we tell her to control) HAHA yes we had fun(:
thank you father for this day
for the events that happened
for this not-emo post(:
help me to cont to find rest in You
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
8:22 PM
(just not seeing my toolbar in blogger again makes me sian of blogging again): )
thank you for accompanying me today although i didnt explicitly told u i wanted u to, thank you for sacrificing time off. i'm loss as to wad to say, but all i just want to say is tt i was looking forward to it,someone whom i can just relax and take my mind off all that i'm going through at almost at the end of the day.
You gave it all for me
My soul desire, my everything
And all I am is devoted to You
How could I fail to see
You are the love that rescued me
And all I am is devoted to You
And oh, how could I not be moved
Lord here with You
So have Your way in me
Cause Lord, there is just one thing
That I will seek
This is my cry
My one desire
Is to be where You are, Lord
Now and forever
Its more than a song
My one desire
Is to be with You
Is to be with You, Jesus
i lift up my hands for all You've done for me
who i am and
what i am
all i want is to serve with a higher purpose for You
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
9:55 PM
Lord with Your strength i'll pull thru the emotional turns
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
10:29 PM
just having to go thru one in a week is enoughand it just have to happen right again, this time the heavier one.when all you want to do is blast the music into your headand cry your heart outLord You've a reason for me to put me thru this
is it just a wake up call?
or is it just a painful reminder
Lead me to my needs Lord
so i'll walk on salvation
your spirit alive in me
this life to declare your promise
my soul now i stand
so i'll stand
with arms high and hears abandoned
in awe of the one who gave it all
my soul Lord to you is surrended
all i am is yours
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
12:29 AM
AYC AWESOME(:
YAY FINALLY I CAN UPLOAD PICS ONTO MY BLOG, SO HERE GOES(; (and more pics to come too) this rawks, i noe this is not spamming it enough yet, cos there's like283749283749287 photos taken on ayc, but these are just some from my fb, those in my hp, i havent even upload yet!! gosh, so here are pics, to brief intros to our recollections of ayc, forever in our minds(:
asean day! spent the first half of the day with yuan rong doing the booth. haha kinda slacked alot actually though(:but yays to yr my buddy for tt day ahhaha
here's the gals being mena before national day celebration! haha we were all camwhoring during dinner, and totally skipped our dinner just for it!
and since, theres the gals, here are the guys being ah bengs! hahahah featuring uly, ryan, surya, ben, and yr hahaha
this was some random day that we took it in the ops room in nus high i think. look at the board! TRAINING RULES like totally(: and we managed to squeeze everyone's name into it!! thanks adrian for that cool idea(:
closing ceremony! oh gosh, look at our super uber pro mc for closing ceremony!(:
I WANT MY PO-LA-RIOD PIC-TURE!! cool rite!!! (:
taken also at nus high, on national day!!!
this is i think at j8 for asean day or smth, i cant rmb clearly. oh gosh wait, why isit only me and kaushi in yellow tee. kk nope i think its some other random i cant rmb when(: taken with the awesome vietnam delegates!
ASEAN DAY!! look at the space we're pointing at! specially for JUKS, DORO, SIANG HUAT! haha oh gosh WE MISS YOU JUKS BTW!! (:
yayyy me and kaushi with our vietnam delegate who simply loves taking photos so much! hahaha AND KAUSHI AND HER PINK HEART BALLOON hur hur(;
before we all started cam-whoring on national day we were all playing with our super cool lightsticks(; and look at mat! hahahha
ULY WITH RED AND WHITE NAIL POLISH, wa so patriotic huh(;
COOLLLLL(:
CLOSING CEREMONY! one of our final-est experiences left for ayc before the tearing all starts): trg com cedar and vs (now where is ryan!)
tgth with zhong ming our dear alternate chair person! hahaha
asean day, korea board! hahah uly why u not wearing yellow shirt! hahah (from left, me, surya, priya and uly(: )
GUYS ON TOP, GALS BELOW, and i think priya and yr just switched their gender! hahahah(:
national day with lightsticks(;
NOW FOR FAREWELL DINNER NITE! (last nite of ayc)
this pic is my hp wallpaper too! makes me tear when i see it, but it's one of the coolest and nicest pic! last nite( farewell nite) look how happy we were, but at the same time, sad that we noe its all gonna end): ( from left, ee fong, adrian, surya, ryan, ben (who looks HAHAHAH) endy, brenda, matilda, hanan, kaushi, yr and me!)
nice nice(:
light sticks with hanannnnn!! coolll(:
again with our vietnam delegate! (:
farewell nite was awesome, like totally(: most of the performances were songs and dance, and trg sang LOVE STORY haha our speciality!
TO TRAINING COM! i just wanna say how much i'll miss us all tgth, all the fun times we've had as a com, admist all the stress, the tears, the pain of the hardwork and effort to plan everything, there's alwys the joy, the fun, the love, the heart for one another. i will forever rmb AYC TC, AYC YLTC, AND LASTLY all the fun times we've shared at AYC itself. our specilaites (love story (which we sing almost everyday tgth HAHA and the guys singing it off tune in the bath HAHAHA), peace like the river, the trg hand shake!! the frenships we've shared, the memories tt'll always be left stuck in our heads. the photos, the tears, the laughter, the meetings, the late-nites,YMCA, late-nite dinner, slacking during lectures, orientation at sentosa! everything i'll always rmb.,
Juks,
Ye Lin
Siang Huat
Uly
Steph
Doro
Ryan
Adrian
Yuan rong
Surya
Priya
Kaushi
TRAINING COM WE'RE ONE COOL CAT, cont to let that light shine in us, tgth as one! and lastly,
ALOT.nothing can be more precious
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
10:35 PM
gosh
i still have juks' last email before she leaves in my email inbox and i havent read. only intend to read aft my tests end, or i think i'll start crying.
todays chem was ok i guess, emath was horrible. ah but its over anyway(: geog geog geog., tell me how i'm supposed to squeeze 2 themes into 5 hours before i fall asleep! oh man):
teachers day ):
as the going gets tough
Lord you're still with me
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
8:17 PM
i'm too tired and drained to blog
Jesus take the wheel
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
9:33 PM
Lord show yourself strong.
i sit staring infront of the com. so many things to think abt, so much to learn.
Lord help me not to fall deeper no matter how perfect the picture is gonna be, it's never perfect without you.
at the foot of the cross,
all my pain, my troubles and worries,
i surrender it all
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
10:55 PM
"His heart is secure, he will have no fear." -Psalms 112:8
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
1:00 PM
HAPPY BDAE JOEY!
spent the whole day doing math
super super long over due photos!(:
this pic is my hp wallpaper too! makes me tear when i see it, but it's one of the coolest and nicest pic! last nite( farewell nite) look how happy we were, but at the same time, sad that we noe its all gonna end): ( from left, ee fong, adrian, surya, ryan, ben (who looks HAHAHAH) endy, brenda, matilda, hanan, kaushi, yr and me!)
Charlotte